Have you ever been so shocked by someone else’s behavior that it truly made you feel like you weren’t sure if it was you or if it was them????? 😵🙄🤔.
Well that’s exactly what I’ve been going through for the past week.. So much so that I had to take a break from social media to get my head back on straight and take a good look at the situation and process it fully… 🤔🙄🤔🙄🤔…
I’ve always been a people person as well as being very spontaneous yet had always worried about what others thought about what I was doing and about myself in general 🙄 😩🤔😩..
It took me a loooonnnnggg time to not worry about what others thought about me, especially when it came to my doing what I needed to do for me and my peace of mind yet as we all look for a little validation, it totally threw me for a huge loop when someone I know (or should I say I thought I knew) stopped talking to me because I haven’t begun my journey in the bus yet! 😒🙄🤔😒…
Yes I went there…
Not being sure if it was them or me because I don’t like disappointing people in general 😖
I have never been one that’s afraid of change and I don’t have any problem with being spontaneous .. Yet this is HUGE and being that I am embarking on this journey alone (something else I’ve never ever done) “I” need to know that all my ducks are in a row with the bus and with myself especially emotionally 😏
The journey in the bus is a huge huge huge life change for me and for the first time in my life I actually want to do it right in every manner..
Although it is taking me longer than even I anticipated.. I’m taking my time.. So that when I drive away I’ll know that everything with the bus is mechanically sound and that I am truly emotionally ready to begin my journey to heal from the loss of my son and begin MY new life 🙏💗
What others may feel isn’t really relevant because this is my journey and however long it takes me to begin is OK..
It’s my journey to take when and only when….
I AM READY!!! 💗🙏💗
It really does amaze me when people try to tell you how to live… The way some think they know better and what’s better for you to do… Yet when you look at their life it’s definitely not how you want to live your life too 🤔🙄
Yet don’t ever let it bother you cause it’s your life to live not theirs… You’re in control of your life and the who, what, why’s and where’s… And to identify the one that’s in charge of your success… Just look right in the mirror then go out and do your best 😀❤😀
I’m finally back to working on the bus so I can begin my journey and keep my promise to my son spreading his ashes where I promised him I would and living our dream ❤🤗❤
Yesterday a beautiful friend helped me get closer to my goal.. the total I need to get everything in order for me to have electricity to run the fridge and other things while I’m stopped at night without using the engines battery was $754 and now it’s down to $554 thank you thank you thank you Kim❤ 😘🤗❤I am so grateful
I am needing a 2000 watt inverter and two 12volt marine batteries as well as a 200 watt solar panel kit which would keep the inverter batteries charged at all times 🤗.
My gofundme link is still active and is in my bio for anyone that can help or if anyone knows where I can get those things cheaper please let me know. 🤗🙏
My goal date to embark on my journey is my son’s birthday October 4th and I’m so close, it’s right around the corner and I’m excited to begin ❤🤗❤
Thank you to all that have helped me get to where I am today, words can’t express my gratitude and love for you all 🤗❤….
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗🌻
Don’t Expect That You Should Too
As I sit here in bed for the past two days sick and feeling like crap… A friend of mine brought me some pretty flowers and said get well fast and these are to brighten your day…. 🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻
It made me think of the flowers and how they bloom, then wither away.. And year after year they come back and bloom again and are just as beautiful as before..🌻🌻🌻
Our lives are just like flowers and different chapters in our lives wither away too…. Just remember like flowers are beautiful and come back… No matter what you go through you will always come back and bloom too!!! ❤🌻❤🌻❤🌻❤
Goodnight Universe ❤🤗❤
I almost didn’t post today because I’ve got so much on my mind and started to doubt myself from people telling me how to live and how I should be processing my son passing away….
Why do people feel they have the right to tell you how you should be living… I truly don’t get it!!! Everyone thinks they know how you should live your life and most of the time their own lives suck!!! Yet they insist on telling you how to live and thinking they know best.
Of course I had someone tell me AGAIN, that traveling around solo isn’t a good idea… That being alone spreading my sons ashes will only make me lonely and hurt even more… I almost started to doubt myself and what I want to do… Then I started thinking about what I write about every day…
Don’t allow others to make you doubt yourself… Live how you want to live, design the life you want and don’t let anyone stop you from doing so… It’s your life, live it your way!!!! So that’s exactly what I’m going to continue to do!!! Live MY life as I see fit for ME 😊
You all know my story and I am only $1000 from reaching my dream and getting that shuttle bus. I’m so close and have 10 days to get it paid off and get it off the property where it is and I am asking for your help because I cannot do this alone…….
We can’t do everything by ourselves and there’s no shame in asking for help… So here I am again asking for your help to please help me get this bus!!!
I totally get that times are tough and a lot of you don’t know me, yet please help if you are able or share my story so that together we can make this happen. I am so ready to begin this journey.. I’m ready to spread my sons ashes at the places he wanted me too…
It’s time for me to heal and it’s time for me to live again. The active link is above and below my friends. Please help me make this my reality so I can learn how to carry this pain lighter and honor my son as well.
Much love to you all and thank you for always being here for me!