It’s really not that hard
Hello My Friends 💖🤗💖🤗💖🤗💖🤗💖
Just sitting here playing with different apps because I want to share my journey with you once I get on the road…
My whole page will be changing to reflect the journey I’m about to embark on…
My poems will still be written by me yet the photos will be all mine, showing and reflecting where I am and my thoughts as always. 😊
The journey I’m about to embark on living in a bus, and traveling all over, is not only a new life, new chapter journey, it is also a healing journey, a journey to spread my son’s ashes at all the places we wanted to see..
While honoring him and finding me 😊
My hope is that my journey can help others that have lost a child know that they too can live, love and carry the pain in a different way, a way that doesn’t knock them on their ass like it did to me.
A learning too let go journey…
Not to forget…
But to LIVE…. 💖💖💖 …
Click on the video it’s actually kinda cute haha 😊😊😊
When You Stop & Take The Time To See
Hello World & Happy Day My Friends 🤗💖
Last night or actually sometime early this morning I woke up crying from a sound sleep with this poem in my head… It wasn’t a sad cry or a scared cry, it was just a slight teary cry 🤔
It was still dark outside and I couldn’t get this poem out of my head, so I grabbed my notepad, wrote it down and fell back asleep 🤔🤔🤔
It wasn’t until after I made my coffee, sat down and went to read my morning motivation text that I remembered that I had written this poem down..
So I grabbed my notepad and read it 🤔
I felt so calm reading this and I tried to remember if I had a dream but couldn’t remember if I did or not.. yet all I could think about was my son Michael and yet this time I didn’t cry 💖🤔💖
I’m not one that ever remembers my dreams yet I’m also one that never wakes up with a poem in my head and then takes the time to write it down half asleep yet this time I did and the more I think about it, the more I believe that it was my Michael, a sign of some sort reminding me to stop and remember the beauty and love we shared..
(yeah I’m crying now) 😢💖😢..
I guess my point in all this is…
Life really is amazing when you stop and take the time to see…
That love is everywhere around us cause it comes from inside of you and me 💖💖💖
Have a beautiful day world 💖🤗💖…
Cause It Comes From Inside Of You
Hello World and Happy Day My Friends 🤗😀
This morning I had to take the little boy I babysit to the school bus by 6:45am which I rarely do because his parents know I don’t like getting up that early and his dad usually does it, yet this morning when I picked him up he asked me something that totally threw me for a loop..🤔😮..
He asked me why I’m always laughing & smiling 🤔😮..
Now I haven’t ever been a morning person, at least I don’t think so lol and if you were to ask my kids what I was like in the mornings they would tell you to leave me alone until I had my coffee…
Yet this little boy saw something in me that I guess I don’t see in myself and it truly caught me off guard and all I could do was laugh 😯😂…
I can say that I am a very positive and optimistic person yet truly thought I was always a bitch in the mornings cause I like my mornings quiet..
At least until I have my coffee and my blood starts to circulate lol lol
Yet when I asked him why he thinks that he said cause he always sees me smiling and laughing even when I was hurting bad when my back went out 😯
All I could do was smile and tell him that smiling and laughing just feels better then being yucky 😉😀😉…
My point in all this is..
Being happy really doesn’t come from outside of us…
When we are truly happy within ourselves it shows outside of us too… It shows in everything we say and it shows in everything we do…
So don’t look for happiness outside of yourself cause that’s not where happiness is…
Happiness comes from inside your heart, cause that’s where happiness lives 😀😉😀….
Have a beautiful day world 💖
Bring Out The Little Kid In You
Hello World and Happy Day My Friends🤗
For the past few months I knew I needed a new phone cause mine has been acting up badly yet it wasn’t a big priority because finishing the bus was my number one 😉
I had made the decision that I would finish the bus first & wait until right before I hit the road to get a new one 🤔
Well as we know plans change haha and I had to change my decision and get a new one asap or I’d be without a phone cause I was truly ready to throw it against a brick wall cause it is acting up so bad😡
Although it pushes finishing the bus back a little bit..
I am ok with it…
I have to have a reliable phone not just on the road but because I use it for literally everything 😱😡..
I knew yesterday that I was going to get the new Samsung Galaxy 9S+ this afternoon (it just came out on the 15th & I’m not a fan of iPhones lol) and this morning I woke up feeling like a little kid waking up on Christmas morn…
Filled with excitement and dancing around the bus like a little kid with a new toy and I believe haven’t even gotten it yet 😄💃😄
Of course it made me think of how serious we all take life on a daily basis and actually made me laugh harder and dance more 😀😁😀😁
My point in all this (not to mention sharing my excitement) is that we truly do make life harder than it really is… 🤔
We get so caught up in daily life that we forget what life’s about…We forget to take the time to laugh & play & shout…
We forget the little things that make us jump for joy, laugh, cry, smile and just basically feel good inside!!!
So my friends let out the little kid in you and I’m sure that you will see… That life is not as serious as we make it out to be 😁 😄 😁…
Have a exciting and silly day world 💗
Hello World and Happy Day My Friends 🤗.
This morning I woke up really early and couldn’t fall back asleep. It was still dark outside, and because of the panels I made for the windows in the bus, it was really dark inside the bus too….
I sat in my bed debating on if I wanted to get up or if I should try and go back to sleep.. everything was so quiet…
So I sat there listening to the silence for a minute and then…
I heard the most beautiful birdsong I’ve ever heard…🕊 🐦
It actually made me tear up 💗😍
It made me think of how much we miss seeing and hearing because we are always on the go…
Rarely taking the time to stop and just listen to all that is around us and it also reminded me that when we use all of our senses there’s so much more we can appreciate…
A bigger world truly opens up to us in many ways 😍
My point in this is…
Don’t just look at the world through your eyes…
Smell it, hear it, taste it, touch it and use all of the senses in you… Cause all the beauty within our world is outside & inside of you too 💗🙏
Take time to listen to the silence today…
The music you’ll hear is amazing 💗
Have a beautiful day world 💗
There Really Is A Difference
This morning I was reading a comment my friend Cobs (@thecobweboriumemporium) made about my post yesterday and it really hit home because she reminded me that there is a difference between being scared and fear… 🤔🙄🤔
Yesterday in my post I said that it was a tad scary knowing that my journey and a new chapter in my life was about to begin and it is true…
It’s something new and something I’ve never done yet there is no fear at all because I know I can always go home and my reasoning for getting the bus was also because if I pull into somewhere that just doesn’t feel right I could just get in the drivers seat and drive off without having to go outside😉
I get so many people that ask me if I’m afraid and or don’t get how a female could travel around the country in a bus ALONE without being in total fear.. Yet Being that I listen to my gut and or follow my instincts I’m actually very excited and not fearful at all. 🤗😀🤗
Fear is a noun and can also be used as a verb. Scared is an adjective. Fear is an emotion. Scared is the state of experiencing fear like being spooked at a haunted house 😨 Fear is usually long term and much harder to push past than the temporary feeling of getting or being scared.. 🤔😌😮
As my friend Cobs said… Being scared is your bodies way of telling you to be aware and to take a look around and make sure no dangers there…
So when you’re starting something new and you feel you can’t go on… Push past that scary feeling and keep on moving on ☺🤗
Have a beYOUtiful day world and thank you Cobs for the inspiration my post today.. Love you huge my friend 💗🤗💗
Tonight while having a torrential downpour something kept telling me to go for a walk in the rain.
At first I even thought it was crazy cause when I say pouring I mean the sky opened up and just dumped and still is yet that little voice inside of me kept saying go it’s OK go.. so I did and I got so drenched that my feet and hands were literally pruned lol lol it was an amazing feeling like being cleansed by the universe… (I love walking in the rain…)
Yet when I got back my neighbor said I was crazy and courageous for walking in a storm such as we are having (did I mention there was lightning in the far far far distance⚡)
It made me think about the little voice that told me it was OK… That I’d be OK 🤗 and I was and am.. 🌧😌
I guess the moral of this story is: So many times we go against what we feel within and wind up regretting it and tonight although that little voice was telling me to go for a walk in a crazy ass rain storm.. I listened and I feel amazing.. 🤗🌧🤗
Listen to what your gut says even if it’s something as silly as going for a walk in a torrential downpour cause listening to that voice within is the most courageous thing we can do!!!
Goodnight universe!!! 😁🌧😁