It’s really not that hard
Hello My Friends 💖🤗💖🤗💖🤗💖🤗💖
Just sitting here playing with different apps because I want to share my journey with you once I get on the road…
My whole page will be changing to reflect the journey I’m about to embark on…
My poems will still be written by me yet the photos will be all mine, showing and reflecting where I am and my thoughts as always. 😊
The journey I’m about to embark on living in a bus, and traveling all over, is not only a new life, new chapter journey, it is also a healing journey, a journey to spread my son’s ashes at all the places we wanted to see..
While honoring him and finding me 😊
My hope is that my journey can help others that have lost a child know that they too can live, love and carry the pain in a different way, a way that doesn’t knock them on their ass like it did to me.
A learning too let go journey…
Not to forget…
But to LIVE…. 💖💖💖 …
Click on the video it’s actually kinda cute haha 😊😊😊
Always Comes From Your Heart
Hello World & Happy Day My Friends
This past week for me has been pretty crazy working on the outside of the bus and then of course the weather decided to take a turn and rain for 3 days (gotta love Florida.. NOT) which put a halt to what I’ve been doing 😩 and on top of that we had a beautiful full blue moon which never fails to heighten my emotions and bring up a lot of past memories some of which as you know are devestating for me 😩
I, as you all know, truly believe there’s nothing wrong with looking back on your life and reflecting on how far you’ve come, to reminisce about the good times and to reflect on lessons learned and not learned yet, as long as you don’t get stuck there and allow your past to stop you from moving forward… 😉
Well I got a tad stuck in my past only seeing the sad, the hurt and pain and missing my son and my chica badly and last night something happened cause when I woke up this morning I felt so much love in my heart and was flooded with beautiful memories 💗
Now I don’t know if it was a dream cause I rarely remember them or if it was the universe reminding me of all the happy times but it made me realize that in order to remember the happy times more than the sad we must look from our hearts….
We all have happy and sad times, the sad ones just stick out more… So when the hurt and sadness pops up use love to push it out the door….
Cause all the love you have within will always help you see… That’s there’s way more happy then sad times, so grab onto those memories 💗🙏
Have a beautiful day world 💗
Hello World and Happy Day My Friends 🤗.
The last few days I’ve been doing a lot of things in the bus.. Kinda like nesting…
Getting things situated where I want them, getting organized, building a new bench that turns into a bed and setting up routes, places and people I wanna see and basically just getting ready to get ready to hit the road 😯…
I’ve also been doing a lot of contemplating and being that my journey in the bus is only 3 months away, I got really sad about my son and my dog not being physically here with me 😢 ..
Of course I know they will always be with me, yet I’m also fully aware that I’ll have sad days too and that’s also ok 😢😢..
So I took a few days to process my thoughts and let my feelings out for a while… Then last night I released them and today I woke up with a smile…
So remember that when you’re up in your head.. that being alone is ok… process your thoughts then release them and wake up to a brand new day 💗🤗💗..
Have a fantabulous day world 💗
You’ll Forever Be In My Heart
Hello World 💗🙏💗
It truly is amazing how we feel about our pets…
They aren’t just an animal that lives with us, they truly become a family member and a huge part of your heart!
Last night I lost my best friend..
My little Chica 😢 she was 16 years old (112 in human years) lived a great life and enhanced mine immensely…
I got her when she was 2 yrs old and she literally went everywhere with me.. my little ride and die partner and losing her truly feels like I lost my best friend, my baby 😢
So today I’m dedicating my post to my baby and to all those who have lost theirs.
The unconditional love we receive from them is unparalleled and they deserve just as much acknowledgement, if not more!!!
Rest in Paradise little Chica, I love you more than words can say… You will be missed so very much… Yet in my heart you’ll always stay!!! 💗😢
They Always Find Their Way Back
I haven’t posted a goodnight post in a while and not because of any reason other then I couldn’t think of anything to write 🤔
Most of you know that all my posts, poems and quotes are written by me and that they really are about what I’m actually dealing with myself at that moment in time.. 🙄.. (It truly does take me longer to find a background image for my writing than it does to write what I write lol)
Yet I’ve learned through my writing and by the beautiful responses I’ve received that I am not alone in my thinking nor am I alone with what I’m going through on a daily basis.. Good, bad or indifferent it’s life..
I’ve also learned from experience through the years, that stuffing my feelings doesn’t do anything other than compressing them into a ball that gets bigger the more I stuff and no matter what they always come back and always when you least expect it and they do come back tenfold… 😮😮😮
Moral of this story: Don’t stuff your feelings cause they only come back to haunt you.. so deal with things as they come up cause no matter how hard they may be to face… In the long run you’ll be glad you did!
Much love and sweet dreams 💕
It’s OK To Show Them Too!
Last night I was talking with a very good friend that was upset because he was always told growing up that a man isn’t supposed to cry! A man isn’t supposed to show his feelings and that it makes him weak if he does!
THAT IS ONE OF MY BIGGEST HUGEST MOST GIGANTIC PET PEEVES!!!
WHY AREN’T MEN SUPPOSED TO SHOW THEIR TRUE FEELINGS??
WHY ARE THEY TAUGHT NOT TO SHOW THEM??
THEY ARE ALLOWED & THEY SHOULD!!!!!!
I raised my boys to know that it’s OK to cry, it’s OK to show how you feel no matter what and every one of their girlfriends throughout the years loved that part of them and I do too!
Society sucks in that manner because there is nothing wrong with crying! There is nothing wrong with showing your true feelings..
In fact it’s healthy to do so!!!
Women are told they are too sensitive when we show our emotions and men are taught not to show them!!
How ass backwards is that?????
To all the men out there that were told that showing your feeling isn’t OK… BULL!!!
To all the women out there that are told you’re too sensitive… BULL!!!
Showing how you feel is showing that you are real… So allow yourself to honour your feelings and allow yourself to be real!!!
There’s A Huge Difference
“Sometimes Letting Go Of Things Is An Act Of Far Greater Power Than Defending Or Hanging On!”~Eckart Tolle
Yesterday was a difficult day for me emotionally. As I was arranging where I wanted things to go in the bus, taking things out of the RV and putting things into the bus, I came across Michael’s laptop which I haven’t touched or looked at since he passed away and i decided it was time to take a look and yep I lost it 😢 it made me wonder if I can really go on this journey of sprinkling his ashes at all the places we wanted to see together 🙄🤔…
I had just bought it for him the Christmas before he passed and there were so many writings and songs he wrote on it that it totally knocked me for a loop.. Yet at the same time it made me think a lot about the difference between giving up and letting go… Of course I’m not going to throw his laptop away and decided that I’m going to save everything into a special folder and use it to write about my/our upcoming journey… Although it I know will be difficult I believe it will be healing too as it will feel like he’s writing with me..
Moral of this story: Don’t let something difficult or painful make you doubt if what you’re doing is right or make you want to give up… Cause there’s a huge difference between giving up and letting go!!! 💗🤗
Have a beautiful day world🌻💗🌻