They Always Find Their Way Back
I haven’t posted a goodnight post in a while and not because of any reason other then I couldn’t think of anything to write 🤔
Most of you know that all my posts, poems and quotes are written by me and that they really are about what I’m actually dealing with myself at that moment in time.. 🙄.. (It truly does take me longer to find a background image for my writing than it does to write what I write lol)
Yet I’ve learned through my writing and by the beautiful responses I’ve received that I am not alone in my thinking nor am I alone with what I’m going through on a daily basis.. Good, bad or indifferent it’s life..
I’ve also learned from experience through the years, that stuffing my feelings doesn’t do anything other than compressing them into a ball that gets bigger the more I stuff and no matter what they always come back and always when you least expect it and they do come back tenfold… 😮😮😮
Moral of this story: Don’t stuff your feelings cause they only come back to haunt you.. so deal with things as they come up cause no matter how hard they may be to face… In the long run you’ll be glad you did!
Much love and sweet dreams 💕
It’s OK To Show Them Too!
Last night I was talking with a very good friend that was upset because he was always told growing up that a man isn’t supposed to cry! A man isn’t supposed to show his feelings and that it makes him weak if he does!
THAT IS ONE OF MY BIGGEST HUGEST MOST GIGANTIC PET PEEVES!!!
WHY AREN’T MEN SUPPOSED TO SHOW THEIR TRUE FEELINGS??
WHY ARE THEY TAUGHT NOT TO SHOW THEM??
THEY ARE ALLOWED & THEY SHOULD!!!!!!
I raised my boys to know that it’s OK to cry, it’s OK to show how you feel no matter what and every one of their girlfriends throughout the years loved that part of them and I do too!
Society sucks in that manner because there is nothing wrong with crying! There is nothing wrong with showing your true feelings..
In fact it’s healthy to do so!!!
Women are told they are too sensitive when we show our emotions and men are taught not to show them!!
How ass backwards is that?????
To all the men out there that were told that showing your feeling isn’t OK… BULL!!!
To all the women out there that are told you’re too sensitive… BULL!!!
Showing how you feel is showing that you are real… So allow yourself to honour your feelings and allow yourself to be real!!!
There’s A Huge Difference
“Sometimes Letting Go Of Things Is An Act Of Far Greater Power Than Defending Or Hanging On!”~Eckart Tolle
Yesterday was a difficult day for me emotionally. As I was arranging where I wanted things to go in the bus, taking things out of the RV and putting things into the bus, I came across Michael’s laptop which I haven’t touched or looked at since he passed away and i decided it was time to take a look and yep I lost it 😢 it made me wonder if I can really go on this journey of sprinkling his ashes at all the places we wanted to see together 🙄🤔…
I had just bought it for him the Christmas before he passed and there were so many writings and songs he wrote on it that it totally knocked me for a loop.. Yet at the same time it made me think a lot about the difference between giving up and letting go… Of course I’m not going to throw his laptop away and decided that I’m going to save everything into a special folder and use it to write about my/our upcoming journey… Although it I know will be difficult I believe it will be healing too as it will feel like he’s writing with me..
Moral of this story: Don’t let something difficult or painful make you doubt if what you’re doing is right or make you want to give up… Cause there’s a huge difference between giving up and letting go!!! 💗🤗
Have a beautiful day world🌻💗🌻
I dedicate today to my son who’s in the sky above… To let him know I miss him and I’m sending him birthday love… 💗💗..
I am a grieving mother…
I am the same yet I am different….
I am here, yet a part of me is gone forever..
I stand in the sunlight…
Yet I walk in the shadows of what was…
Cannot ever be ….
Until we meet again my son….
For all eternity 🙏💗🙏
Happy Birthday Michael
I Love You forever & beyond
This morning when I woke up I was going to post a different poem I wrote and right before I posted it I saw a post my beautiful friend Christi posted on instagram about children and how we are taught hate and racism and it hit me hard… 😢 cause it’s so true 😢😢…
Growing up in NYC I was surrounded by diversity and different cultures from all over the world and was raised to accept everyone for WHO they are.. not WHAT they did for a living, not WHERE they were from, not what RELIGION they practiced or BELIEVED in and not what COLOR their skin was!
I was raised to BE ME & BE KIND TO ALL..To EMBRACE and LEARN from other cultures, not to FEAR them or DISLIKE them for being different and I raised my children the same way!!! Yet I truly feel our world is going backwards not forwards and it truly saddens my heart! 😢💔😢
Does it really matter where someone is from???… NO…. Does it really matter what someone does for a living as long as they aren’t stealing or harming another human being???… NO…. Does it really matter what color a person is???… NO… because if you strip our skin we would all look alike!! And does it really matter what you believe in, whether it be God, Allah, The Universe or none???… NO NO NO!!!! 😡😡😡
Come on people snap out of it… Stop talking smack about others just because they aren’t like you or don’t believe in what you believe…. Stop telling lies because you are jealous or don’t understand or just don’t know… Stop putting people in categories… We all bleed the same color and If you don’t know ask… Learn… Research whatever but STOP all this hate and violence just because others don’t believe as you do.. that’s what makes our world special…… that’s what makes our world unique 🌏💗🌍💗🌎💗
Moral of this story.. BE KIND.. BE HUMAN.. BE REAL & STOP THE NONSENSE…Hate breeds violence and if we continue at the rate we’re going our world will cease to be! Wake up world!!! BEFORE there is no world to wake up too! 💗🌏💗🌍💗🌎💗
WE ARE ONE!! EMBRACE NOT HATE!!!
Cause They Always Come Back
In the past few days I’ve had a bunch of feelings and emotions pop up out of nowhere yet because I’ve learned to allow them rather then to fight or stuff them, I’ve also learned that I feel 100% better when I deal with them and work through them right away.
In the past if it was fear of something or sadness I’d stuff the feelings or ignore them as if they weren’t there, trying to be a “strong ” person and not let things get to me… Showing your feelings isn’t a sign off weakness, it’s actually a sign off strength, a sign that does you are REAL yet society doesn’t help in that manner and neither does education and or sometimes people.
We are taught from a child to NOT cry, NOT to show or say how we truly feel, NOT to let others see when your hurting etc and I just don’t get that because it always comes back no matter what it comes back 10 fold, and it’s harder to deal with cause it brings up years of past shit and it when we last expect it too and then we just have to deal and heal from it all over again😡🤔😡
Feelings are a part of our being and to hide them is hiding who we truly are!! Always always allow yourself to feel.. Whether you’re mad, glad, sad or scared don’t hide how you feel, don’t stuff them and don’t pretend they aren’t there cause when we deal with them head on they are temporary.. When we stuff and hide them they last forever until we deal with them head on. So feel them, show them, allow them and process them cause when you do you’ll be glad you did!!
Goodnight Universe 🤗❤
Take Charge Of How You Feel
This morning as I was making a little list of things I want to do… It made me stop a think a bit about how I want to feel too 🤔.
We tend to judge how we feel on the things that we have done… We forget to stop and appreciate where we’ve been and how far we’ve come 🙄🙄….
So I decided to make a TO-BE-LIST and take charge of how I want to feel today.. Cause it truly is only up to me how I feel throughout my day… No one has control of how I think or how I react… Cause I’m the one that makes that choice and that my friends is a fact 😁🤗😁🤗😁.
Working on the countertop and having running water in the bus today and I feel great about it and very productive… I’m down to only needing help with $384 to finish getting the inverter, the batteries and the solar panel kit… My gofundme link is still active and below for anyone that can help or share the link so I can make the goal of being in the road on my son’s birthday October 4th. 🤗❤🤗 Thank you to everyone for all your love and support for it’s helped me get where I am today and I’m so very grateful ❤🙏❤… Have a beYOUtiful day world… back to work I go! 🤗🌻🤗