For the past month or so every morning when I got up I would get big time butterflies in my stomach and for the past week it didn’t happen at all 🤔
Until today 😮 this morning there was a huge colony of butterflies in my stomach as I walked towards the bus 😮🙃😮 and I immediately started laughing because it hit me as to why it was happening 😮.
Since I brought the bus home and started converting it… Every morning I got excited about what I was going to be doing in the bus that day…
Excitement butterflies 😄😄
And each day as I watched the transformation take place the butterflies went from tiny ones to the massive colony that is in my stomach today and it’s because the bus is almost done and my dream and journey is literally right around the corner 😱😱😱.
Am I excited? Yes!!
Am I a tad scared? HELL YES I AM!!!!
This is A HUGE life change for me…. Something I’ve never ever done in many ways and yet it’s also been a dream of mine for as long as I can remember 😮😮
Life keeps moving no matter what and life changes happen too… Yet if changing gets to scary, we allow the fear to takeover what we want to do…
So do not let fear stop you from living all your dreams… Cause it will be very scary at first yet after you do it you’ll realize it wasn’t as scary as it seemed😮🙃😮.
Have a fantabulous day world 💗🤗
Cause They Always Come Back
In the past few days I’ve had a bunch of feelings and emotions pop up out of nowhere yet because I’ve learned to allow them rather then to fight or stuff them, I’ve also learned that I feel 100% better when I deal with them and work through them right away.
In the past if it was fear of something or sadness I’d stuff the feelings or ignore them as if they weren’t there, trying to be a “strong ” person and not let things get to me… Showing your feelings isn’t a sign off weakness, it’s actually a sign off strength, a sign that does you are REAL yet society doesn’t help in that manner and neither does education and or sometimes people.
We are taught from a child to NOT cry, NOT to show or say how we truly feel, NOT to let others see when your hurting etc and I just don’t get that because it always comes back no matter what it comes back 10 fold, and it’s harder to deal with cause it brings up years of past shit and it when we last expect it too and then we just have to deal and heal from it all over again😡🤔😡
Feelings are a part of our being and to hide them is hiding who we truly are!! Always always allow yourself to feel.. Whether you’re mad, glad, sad or scared don’t hide how you feel, don’t stuff them and don’t pretend they aren’t there cause when we deal with them head on they are temporary.. When we stuff and hide them they last forever until we deal with them head on. So feel them, show them, allow them and process them cause when you do you’ll be glad you did!!
Goodnight Universe 🤗❤
Take Charge Of How You Feel
This morning as I was making a little list of things I want to do… It made me stop a think a bit about how I want to feel too 🤔.
We tend to judge how we feel on the things that we have done… We forget to stop and appreciate where we’ve been and how far we’ve come 🙄🙄….
So I decided to make a TO-BE-LIST and take charge of how I want to feel today.. Cause it truly is only up to me how I feel throughout my day… No one has control of how I think or how I react… Cause I’m the one that makes that choice and that my friends is a fact 😁🤗😁🤗😁.
Working on the countertop and having running water in the bus today and I feel great about it and very productive… I’m down to only needing help with $384 to finish getting the inverter, the batteries and the solar panel kit… My gofundme link is still active and below for anyone that can help or share the link so I can make the goal of being in the road on my son’s birthday October 4th. 🤗❤🤗 Thank you to everyone for all your love and support for it’s helped me get where I am today and I’m so very grateful ❤🙏❤… Have a beYOUtiful day world… back to work I go! 🤗🌻🤗
Everyone and Everything Is Unique
Yesterday when I was walking in the rain, the smell, the sounds, the feeling of the rain on my skin made me feel refreshed and centered…. 🌻🌧🌻…
I rarely take an umbrella cause I love the way the rain feels, It’s cleansing and refreshing and also helps things heal🌧🌻.
The different types of flowers, the different types of trees… The sounds of the rain falling on the river, the sounds of the birds and the bees… All made me see how different and unique this beautiful world of ours is…. 🌻🌎
So don’t strive for perfection, cause perfection can’t be found… Just take a walk in nature and you’ll see that beauty is all around 🤗🌻🤗🌻🤗🌻🤗🌻🤗🌻🤗🌻
Have a beYOUtiful day world 🌻🌍
It Needs To Be Cleared Out Too
We all have days when our minds feel clouded or may feel like it’s too full… Of all the things we want yet we feel like we can’t do… Our minds are like a computer and it keeps things stored inside… Some things are at the forefront.. some things we let stay behind 🤔🙄
Yet just like a computer needs cleaning so it doesn’t get bogged down… Our minds need cleaning too from things we don’t need to keep around.
So when you start to feel scattered, don’t think you’re doing things wrong… It may just mean you need to clear your mind of things you’ve held on to too long.. 🙄🤗
There are a few items I need to get so I can complete the bus… If anyone knows where I can get a 1000 watt or higher inverter, a 100 or 200 watt solar panel kit, an electric cooler or mini fridge to help me complete the bus, It will be greatly appreciated. 🙏❤🙏
I will be leaving my gofundme link active for anyone that would like to help… Or if anyone has one of those items they would be willing to donate please email me, send me a direct message or comment below. The active link is in my bio. Please help if you are able or share the link so I can continue converting the bus and move forward with my journey to heal and honor my son 🙏❤🙏
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗🌻
We all go through some mornings when we wake up feeling blue… It’s a normal feeling even though it can ruin what you’d like to do
Yet on those days that it happens try your best to smile and shake it off.. Do something that will make you laugh and something you love to do…. Then it will change the mood you’re in and you’ll be an awe-inspiring YOU
A few of my friends woke up today not feeling the best and when I read that this poem popped into my head… We have total control of our feelings even though it may seem like we don’t… Shake off the yuck and fill it with smiles cause it will make your day better for you!!! Smiling my friends is easier when we shake off the yuck 😁🤗😁
There’s a few costly items I’m going to need help with to complete the bus and so I’m asking if anyone knows where I can get a 1000 watt inverter, a 100-200 watt solar panel kit and a small electric cooler or mini fridge to help me complete the bus, I would be extremely grateful… I will be leaving my gofundme link active for anyone that would like to help… Or if anyone has one they would be willing to donate please DM me. The active link is below and I’m so so excited to continue converting the bus. Thank you all for all your help it’s time to get the bus ready for my beautiful journey ahead
Have a fantabulous day world 😁🌻😁🌻
Staying in your comfort zone isn’t always the best thing for you… Yet we allow our minds put out fear and doubt which takes over what we want to do..
So step out of your comfort zone and reach up to the sky… Spread you wings, believe in yourself and you’ll truly start to fly…🕊🕊🕊
I’m so close to bringing the bus home.. and making my dreams come true .. thank you all for helping and for all you do. The link is in my bio so please help me if you can or share the link so that I can continue on with my plans. To spread my son’s ashes at the places he wanted to see, to continue on this journey of healing and to honor him and me. Thank you thank you thank you ALL 🕊🙏🕊
🙏🕊🙏 Goodnight Universe 🙏🕊🙏