Yesterday was a very cold and rainy day and as I was painting the counter and shelves it hit me hard that my journey is just a couple weeks away and I lost it😢😢
I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out how to let go of the sadness and pain because this was supposed to be and Michael’s journey.. 😢😢😢
Although i know he’s with me daily in mind, heart and spirit, I couldn’t get past the fact that his physical isn’t with me and I literally cried all day and cried myself to sleep.😢
I started doubting if I can really travel around alone to all the places he wanted us to see sprinkling his ashes along the way and this morning I woke up with this poem in my head.. 💗💗💗
I know it’s going to be a very emotional journey yet I know in my heart and soul that this is meant to be and I believe yesterday was just a OMG IT’S REALLY HAPPENING day and this morning I remembered that I’m not letting go to forget… I’m letting go to move on with my life…
To live and to begin a new journey, a new chapter in my life and although a tad scary it is time and I am ready.
Thank you to everyone that has helped me get to this point and for all the love and support received and continue to receive… For you all I am eternally grateful 💗🙏💗
The countdown to my new beginning, my journey to heal has begun!
Goodnight Universe 💕
Take Pride In How Far You’ve Come
The past couple of days I decided to take a break from all my social media accounts and focus 100% on finishing the inside of the bus (not a great multitasker) and now the inside is 98% finished🤗😀🤗😀
I just need to make sure things are secure so I don’t have an avalanche driving down the road and finish putting in the things i need for my journey 💗🤗💗.. Will post pics this evening cause on Monday the new tires and solar system gets done and omg I’ll be ready to begin🤗💗🤗💗🤗💗🤗💗🤗
Of course I changed a few things and made more storage space cause I really don’t like wasted space and needed it too yet I knew that would happen😉😮😉… Especially since this will be my home for a long time 🤗
Yet I’m really happy with how it turned out and it made me take a look at where I stated, where I am today and where I’m going and that’s when this poem popped into my head 🤔😮🤗..
We get all happy when we reach a goal yet we forget where we came from… So don’t forget how you started and all the work you’ve done… Have faith in where you’re heading too & take pride in how far you’ve come… Cause the journey is about all the little steps and all the challenges you’ve overcome 💕☺💕☺💕
Have a beYOUtiful day world 🤗🌻🤗
It’s A Form Of Self Punishment
Happy New Day My Friends 🤗🌻
There’s a song by Nina Simone called “Feeling Good” it’s been done by various artists yet Michael Buble’s version I love and this morning as I was doing my morning routine and listening to it… I started thinking about things in my past and present and really looked into if I had any regrets and I can honestly say no… 🤔
Of course there are things I think I could’ve done better or even not at all… Yet regrets nope I have none.. 😳🤔😳
We all have times where we think woulda, coulda, shoulda… Yet I wouldn’t be where I am today or the person I am if I hadn’t done the things I’ve done… 🙂🙂🙂…
Moral of this story: Don’t ever regret things from your past, things that you didn’t get to say or to do… Cause regret is a form of self punishment and it’s really not good for you too..
Let go of your past and release all that is gone.. Cause TODAY is a new dawn.. It’s a new day.. It’s a new life.. And it’s time to feel….
Have a beautiful day world🌻🤗
I dedicate today to my son who’s in the sky above… To let him know I miss him and I’m sending him birthday love… 💗💗..
I am a grieving mother…
I am the same yet I am different….
I am here, yet a part of me is gone forever..
I stand in the sunlight…
Yet I walk in the shadows of what was…
Cannot ever be ….
Until we meet again my son….
For all eternity 🙏💗🙏
Happy Birthday Michael
I Love You forever & beyond
This morning when I woke up I was going to post a different poem I wrote and right before I posted it I saw a post my beautiful friend Christi posted on instagram about children and how we are taught hate and racism and it hit me hard… 😢 cause it’s so true 😢😢…
Growing up in NYC I was surrounded by diversity and different cultures from all over the world and was raised to accept everyone for WHO they are.. not WHAT they did for a living, not WHERE they were from, not what RELIGION they practiced or BELIEVED in and not what COLOR their skin was!
I was raised to BE ME & BE KIND TO ALL..To EMBRACE and LEARN from other cultures, not to FEAR them or DISLIKE them for being different and I raised my children the same way!!! Yet I truly feel our world is going backwards not forwards and it truly saddens my heart! 😢💔😢
Does it really matter where someone is from???… NO…. Does it really matter what someone does for a living as long as they aren’t stealing or harming another human being???… NO…. Does it really matter what color a person is???… NO… because if you strip our skin we would all look alike!! And does it really matter what you believe in, whether it be God, Allah, The Universe or none???… NO NO NO!!!! 😡😡😡
Come on people snap out of it… Stop talking smack about others just because they aren’t like you or don’t believe in what you believe…. Stop telling lies because you are jealous or don’t understand or just don’t know… Stop putting people in categories… We all bleed the same color and If you don’t know ask… Learn… Research whatever but STOP all this hate and violence just because others don’t believe as you do.. that’s what makes our world special…… that’s what makes our world unique 🌏💗🌍💗🌎💗
Moral of this story.. BE KIND.. BE HUMAN.. BE REAL & STOP THE NONSENSE…Hate breeds violence and if we continue at the rate we’re going our world will cease to be! Wake up world!!! BEFORE there is no world to wake up too! 💗🌏💗🌍💗🌎💗
WE ARE ONE!! EMBRACE NOT HATE!!!
Today after I learned that I am 400 miles away from the predicted path of hurricane Irma and won’t be affected by it I spent the whole day making window curtain insulation panels and getting shelves put up cause I decided that if Southern Florida needs help I want to be able to go there in the bus and help being that I’m in Florida too!!! So I’m totally on a mission get this done 🙏❤🙏❤🙏
Luckily the bus is really really insulated well yet I wanted to make something that covered the windows for privacy, that I could put up and take down easily and that helped insulated the windows themselves cause they are big and there’s 10 of them… So I came up with the idea to use a thin insulation (reflectix) that prevents condensation and cover it with a Navy blue material so the inside at night matched the theme of my blog Hello World Goodnight Universe and it turned out perfectly… 🤗❤🤗.
I still need to add the Velcro and finish decorating them yet here’s what it looks like so far (excuse the tape I used to hold them in place lol) it’s all coming together and I’m so so excited and so grateful 🙏.
The total I need to get everything in order for me to have electricity to run the fridge and other things while I’m stopped at night without using the engine battery is down to $554 and I am so grateful to ask that have helped me get this far😀❤🤗.
I am still needing to purchase a 2000 watt inverter and two 12volt marine batteries as well as a 200 watt solar panel kit which would keep the inverter batteries charged at all times 🤗 My gofundme link is still active and is below for anyone that can help or if anyone knows where I can get those things cheaper please let me know.
Goodnight Universe ❤🌻❤
When We Look At Things That Way
Yesterday I couldn’t get my thoughts to settle down.. it was a very emotional day and I couldn’t stop and think… Of why my head would not shut up and let me swim not sink… 🤔🙄🤔
We all go though days like that and there’s really no reason why… yesterday was a day like that for me so I just processed it and cried… today I’m feeling better and I woke up with a smile 🌻🤗🌻 I’m back to working on the bus at least for a little while 😀🤗…
Not every day will be a sad one, not every day will be good… Just process what you’re going through and go through the day as you should… Cause life is filled with lessons when we look at them that way… And when we fully realize that we’ll have a much better day… 🤗🌻😀
I’m back to working on the bus so I can begin my journey and keep my promise to my son spreading his ashes where I promised him I would and live our dream ❤ The total I need to get everything in order for me to have electricity to run the fridge and other things while I’m stopped at night without using the engine battery is down to $554 and I am so grateful.😀❤🤗
I am still needing a 2000 watt inverter and two 12volt marine batteries as well as a 200 watt solar panel kit which would keep the inverter batteries charged at all times 🤗 My gofundme link is still active and is below for anyone that can help or if anyone knows where I can get those things cheaper please let me know. 🤗🙏
My goal date to embark on my journey is my son’s birthday October 4th and I’m so close, it’s right around the corner and I’m so excited to begin ❤🤗❤
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗