There’s A Huge Difference
“Sometimes Letting Go Of Things Is An Act Of Far Greater Power Than Defending Or Hanging On!”~Eckart Tolle
Yesterday was a difficult day for me emotionally. As I was arranging where I wanted things to go in the bus, taking things out of the RV and putting things into the bus, I came across Michael’s laptop which I haven’t touched or looked at since he passed away and i decided it was time to take a look and yep I lost it 😢 it made me wonder if I can really go on this journey of sprinkling his ashes at all the places we wanted to see together 🙄🤔…
I had just bought it for him the Christmas before he passed and there were so many writings and songs he wrote on it that it totally knocked me for a loop.. Yet at the same time it made me think a lot about the difference between giving up and letting go… Of course I’m not going to throw his laptop away and decided that I’m going to save everything into a special folder and use it to write about my/our upcoming journey… Although it I know will be difficult I believe it will be healing too as it will feel like he’s writing with me..
Moral of this story: Don’t let something difficult or painful make you doubt if what you’re doing is right or make you want to give up… Cause there’s a huge difference between giving up and letting go!!! 💗🤗
Have a beautiful day world🌻💗🌻
Cause They Always Come Back
In the past few days I’ve had a bunch of feelings and emotions pop up out of nowhere yet because I’ve learned to allow them rather then to fight or stuff them, I’ve also learned that I feel 100% better when I deal with them and work through them right away.
In the past if it was fear of something or sadness I’d stuff the feelings or ignore them as if they weren’t there, trying to be a “strong ” person and not let things get to me… Showing your feelings isn’t a sign off weakness, it’s actually a sign off strength, a sign that does you are REAL yet society doesn’t help in that manner and neither does education and or sometimes people.
We are taught from a child to NOT cry, NOT to show or say how we truly feel, NOT to let others see when your hurting etc and I just don’t get that because it always comes back no matter what it comes back 10 fold, and it’s harder to deal with cause it brings up years of past shit and it when we last expect it too and then we just have to deal and heal from it all over again😡🤔😡
Feelings are a part of our being and to hide them is hiding who we truly are!! Always always allow yourself to feel.. Whether you’re mad, glad, sad or scared don’t hide how you feel, don’t stuff them and don’t pretend they aren’t there cause when we deal with them head on they are temporary.. When we stuff and hide them they last forever until we deal with them head on. So feel them, show them, allow them and process them cause when you do you’ll be glad you did!!
Goodnight Universe 🤗❤
We Cannot Control Her Wrath
Just an update to let everyone know I’m safe and sound… Living in Florida I’ve been through a lot yet Hurricane Irma has destroyed so many places in Florida, the Caribbean, Puerto Rico, Cuba and so many others and they all need our prayers, our love and positive energy so please continue to do so.. 🙏❤
I am going to take a different journey once we get the ok to go to the Florida keys to assist in the cleanup cause they will be needing lots of help and I will be going as soon as I can get the inside electric going in the bus……
I know that’s what my son would do too, so putting off my own healing journey right now is what I feel I must do too… Almost all of Southern Florida…From Tampa down to the Keys aren’t even accessible for a while yet as soon as they call for help I’ll be going down to do so..
Most of you know that I’m all about being optimistic, real, always staying positive and helping others to stay positive too and as I have been helped by so many, I am honored to be able to help others that need my help now too…. ❤🙏❤
You all know that I still need a 2000 watt inverter and the batteries for it plus the solar panel to keep the batteries charged… Being there will be little if any electric down in the Keys these things are a necessity…the total cost i still need for that is $554… My gofundme link below is still active and I’m asking for your help so I can be of service where I’m needed most…
Thank you all for your love, concern and constant support… I am safe… I truly am grateful for you all and grateful that I’ll have the ability to help others as others have helped me… Much love to you all … And thank you 🙏❤🙏
Goodnight Universe ❤🤗❤
You Only Have Control Of Your Own
I have a few friends that are going through various issues and none that are cause by themselves… Yet it made me think of this poem and another one I wrote a while back… 🤗❤🤗❤…
I have two beliefs that I of course learned the hard way… Yet even though I know it.. it’s hard sometimes to implement it even when I know I should… When any situation or issue rises I try to only think of this: Can I control it? No… Then let it go and move on…. Can I control it? Yes… Then get off your ass and do something about it… 🤔🙄
Both are not very easy yet the “control it yes” is easier than not… So Make a list and do what you need to and don’t you ever stop!!!… ❤🙏❤…
I’m finally back to working on the bus so I can begin my journey and keep my promise to my son and spread his ashes where I promised him I would…In order for me to have electricity to run the fridge and other things while I’m stopped at night without using the engines battery, I need a 2000 watt inverter and two 12volt marine batteries which costs $364 total. I would also like to get a 200 watt solar panel kit which would keep the inverter batteries charged at all times and the cost for the kit is $390. My gofundme link is still active and is below, for anyone that can help or if anyone knows where I can get those things cheaper please let me know. Thank you to all that have helped me get to where I am today, words can’t express my gratitude for you all 🤗❤….
The last 10 days has been incredible and amazing…
Seeing friends that are actually family, that I’ve know for over 40 yrs yet haven’t seen since 1987 has been an incredible event in my life…
Going back to the places I grew up, having flashbacks of the times I spent there from 5 yrs old to 29 yrs old brought up past emotions from when my mom passed in 1985 and even issues that I thought I had dealt with yet actually stuffed…
Yet it truly was incredible and very much needed… ❤👨❤👨
Being there and seeing old friends and making some new…truly helped me realize what should be important to you.. and it doesn’t matter if you’re together or apart… True Friends are family that stay in your heart.. and no matter where you go or what ever you do… True friends will always be right there for you!!!!
Have a beautiful day my friends 🌻🤗🌻
Even The Worst Ones Don’t Last
The old saying that when it rains it pours when your going through tough situations.. is very very true…
Some you’ll go through easily, some will knock the life out of you 😱
Yet there is no situation, no matter how big or how small… That can keep you down forever, you just have to keep going and stand tall ❤🙏❤
The past two months has been a roller coaster ride for sure, between getting the bus.. Excitement… To the 2 yr anniversary of my son passing… Devestating… Starting the conversion on the bus… Fun… Then the loss of my second mom… Heartbreaking… To having to reset the date on my journey in the bus back a month… Setback..
I’m still standing…
ALWAYS remember that life is full of setbacks… Just don’t let them get in your way.. we all fall down throughout our lives we just need to get up and keep moving… a little more every day
Goodnight Universe ❤ 😘
Yesterday was the first day I didn’t post at all in 6 months and although I felt off at different times and moments throughout the day for not posting, I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to do so😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
My best friend, my soulmate friend, my rock and sister that I’ve known for 40 yrs mother passed away and I didn’t know how to process it with all that I’ve been going through myself 🤔🙄
So I decided to take a sabbatical, a day to just process my feelings, a day to allow myself to feel the loss of her mom, to cry and scream too..a day to just be me and allow it 🙄🤔
It’s truly amazing what we can endure no matter what life throws at us and as long as we believe in ourselves there is nothing that can’t get through..
Never ever stop believing in the strength you have within, never ever stop knowing that you CAN endure and get through ANYTHING that life throws at you… You only have to believe