I dedicate today to my son who’s in the sky above… To let him know I miss him and I’m sending him birthday love… 💗💗..
I am a grieving mother…
I am the same yet I am different….
I am here, yet a part of me is gone forever..
I stand in the sunlight…
Yet I walk in the shadows of what was…
Cannot ever be ….
Until we meet again my son….
For all eternity 🙏💗🙏
Happy Birthday Michael
I Love You forever & beyond
The Hours Remain The Same
The last few days I caught myself stressing about the 4th being right around the corner and looking at the things I still need to do to make the bus ready and boy oh boy I’ve been a mess 😵😱😵.
So yesterday I meditated and prayed a lot because it was making anxious and sad that I might not be ready in 10 days… And this morning I woke up to an email from the organization in the Keys that said because they don’t have all the supplies needed down there yet that it wouldn’t be until AFTER the 15th before they will ask the volunteers to start going down there to help rebuild…
Although I did want to leave on Michael’s birthday I know that the “date” doesn’t matter cause it’s the journey itself that does… 😁😍😁
Moral of the story: Don’t let hurry worry get stuck in your mind cause the hours of the day don’t change so don’t stress out about the time. We don’t have to always get things done in one day.. So take your time, pace yourself and don’t let stress get in your way😁😉
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗🌻
Thinking about my upcoming journey a lot.. There’s been so many different emotions yet the one that overpowers them all is excitement… 😁🤗😁
Where to start which way to go first… Up, down, North, South, East or West… Flip a coin maybe?? Lol …the bus will be done within 2 weeks and I’m still waiting for the ok to go down to the keys and help.. so I guess we will see… 😀💕😀
One day at a time is all I can do yet it feels so good to know it’s happening.. So close and so exciting… A new chapter, a new beginning, a brand new life! 😍❤😘
Don’t be afraid of life transitions cause transitions happen all our life.. Baby to toddler, toddler to kid, kid to teen and teen to adult and it just keeps going… So don’t be afraid of life’s transitions cause when one chapter closes another one always begins 🤗💝
Goodnight Universe 🌻🤗🌻
Believe In Your Dreams and Your Goals
When we share our dreams and goals with others, many will not believe that it’s possible. Many will tell you that your dreams or goals are too big and that you’ll never reach them.. Some will put doubt and fear in your head as well… yet who’s dreams are they? Theirs or yours?🤔🤔🤔.
This morning I woke up thinking about all the people that thought I was crazy (after my son passed away) for wanting to get a bus and convert it into a living home on wheels. To travel all over the country sprinkling his ashes at all the beautiful places that we wanted too see and especially to do it alone.. 🤔😮🤔
It made me giggle and actually start laughing hard cause at one point all their doubts and negativity stated to make me doubt that I could do it too… 🤔🤔🤔 yet look at where I am now!
The bus is almost finished and my journey will soon begin and I can smile at all the doubters cause in my heart I knew I’d win 😁🤗😁.
Now when I look back at things I giggle and I laugh… cause I removed the negativity in my life and started to release the pain of my past. I believed with all my heart that I could make this dream come true, and I did exactly that with positivity and YOU..
So push all doubt out of your head and push negative people away from you.. They’re your dreams and it’s your life to live how you want too!!”
Have a fantabulous day world 🤗🌻🤗
Well I figured out what that little bit of fear I was experiencing was… And as I worked through it I had to laugh and laugh hard… Cause it basically was a reality check showing me that my dream IS and HAS come true..😱😱😱.
I guess for me all this time I’ve been working towards getting the bus, converting it and having the ability to travel and keep my promise to my son to live our dream and sprinkle his ashes at all the places we wanted to see, was still in the back of my mind as a dream that I hoped would one day come true and it hit me hard that it HAS come true and it IS happening and I WILL be on the road living that dream very very soon. 😮😱😮.
I guess it was one of those omg wake-up call reality checks when I walked out if the bus the other night and it scared the crap out of me… Like REALLY??? REALITY CHECK RICCI… It’s happening right here, right now!!!! Someone pinch me please hahaha 😱😱😱…
Which brought this poem/quote/whatever you wanna call it to mind this morning…🤗 Hope, Faith, Believing and Optimism all go hand in hand and they all lead you to living the life of your dreams!!! So always have hope, always have faith and always believe in being optimistic.. Cause optimism is having the faith to turn your dreams into your reality.. 🤗😁🤗😁🤗😁
I know cause I believed and my dream is now my reality 💗🤗💗 Never stop believing my friends 💗🤗💗and always believe YOU CAN 🤗🙏🤗.
Have a beautiful day world 🤗🌻
Compassion is like kindness it doesn’t cost a dime… All it take is a little love and a few moments of your time 🤗💕🤗💕🤗
Take a moment throughout the day to 😃 or say hello.. To someone you may know or see that may be feeling low 🙃😀🙃😀.
A little kindness and compassion goes a very long way. So take time to smile or say hello and make someone else’s day 🤗😁
Have a beautiful day world 🤗🌻
The last few days I’ve been writing a lot about confidence, doubt and believing and tonight as I was writing this I realized that what I write about is truly about what I’m going through at that moment myself🤔🙄
I write so much about what my friends and other people are going through, trying to help others smile and believe, that It didn’t really hit me until tonight as I was walking out of the bus that all the work I’ve been doing on the bus and especially my writing ARE the steps for my journey too..
My journey to find courage within. My journey to heal from losing my son, my journey to live and learn to let go, my journey to not forget..To have peace within my heart and to live my dream and his and omg… 😮 I’m living it 😱😱
Tonight I’m living a wow moment… A omg moment… A shake my head REALLY moment?? and as optimistic, confident and positive of a person as I am… I too go through moments of doubt, fear and lose courage and even lack confidence and have moments of disbelief yet in my heart I never lost hope, I never stopped believing and I now know without a doubt that believing is the key to living and the key to your dreams.. Always believe no matter what my friends, cause believing is what makes dreams come true!!! 💗🙏💗
Goodnight Universe 🌠Goodnight My Friends 🌠💗🌠