Don’t Take It For Granted
Hello World 🌻 Happy Day My Friends 💖🙏💖
The month of July is a very hard month for me…
Although the beginning of the month should bring me happy memories, knowing what happened at the end of the month makes it very hard for me to smile today 😢
July 4th, 2015 my son and I decided to get out of town and we went camping at one of our favorite places, Roosevelt Lake in the Tonto National Forest…
We explored Indian ruins, went swimming in the lake and saw 5 different fireworks shows from different cities because we hiked to a mountain top..
We had a wonderful 5 days, days that should make me happy, yet then I remember that on July 30th my son went on a different journey up in heaven.. 😢
I’m trying to learn how to carry this pain in a different way, where I can smile at the beautiful time we had on the 4th, yet it’s still very hard for me 😢
Yet even though my pain, today always reminds me of how many people don’t have the freedom that we do and I get so so grateful for what I do have..
2 other incredible children, friends that are amazing and a life where I can do whatever I please and that fills my heart with gratitude and love 💖🤗..
My point in all this is:
So many in our world don’t have the freedom that we do.. they cannot live a life where they can do whatever they want too…
Today is Independence Day and every day should be..a day that you are grateful to be alive and to be free! 🙏🙏
Happy 4th of July 💖
It’s really not that hard
Hello My Friends 💖🤗💖🤗💖🤗💖🤗💖
Just sitting here playing with different apps because I want to share my journey with you once I get on the road…
My whole page will be changing to reflect the journey I’m about to embark on…
My poems will still be written by me yet the photos will be all mine, showing and reflecting where I am and my thoughts as always. 😊
The journey I’m about to embark on living in a bus, and traveling all over, is not only a new life, new chapter journey, it is also a healing journey, a journey to spread my son’s ashes at all the places we wanted to see..
While honoring him and finding me 😊
My hope is that my journey can help others that have lost a child know that they too can live, love and carry the pain in a different way, a way that doesn’t knock them on their ass like it did to me.
A learning too let go journey…
Not to forget…
But to LIVE…. 💖💖💖 …
Click on the video it’s actually kinda cute haha 😊😊😊
So Be Grateful For All You’ve Got
Hello World & Happy Day My Friends 🤗🤗
Every morning when I open my eyes the first thing I do is look out the window to see what the weather is like, I look up to the sky, say thank you, say good morning to my fur babies and go about my daily routine 😉
It’s something I’ve always done and a few weeks ago when I started growing the herbs for the bus, I added saying good morning, misting and watering them to my morning routine so I wouldn’t forget to do it … 🤗
The weather was never one that bothered me or made my day yucky cause that’s something I definitely don’t have control of plus I love the rain (it doesn’t show where I live but I always liked it too)
This morning after doing my daily routine I felt an almost overwhelming feeling of gratitude and I couldn’t help but think about all the things I am truly grateful for🤔
I thought about how grateful we all should be as soon as we open our eyes in the morning ❤️🙏❤️
Now I’m not by any means religious yet I do believe in a power greater than myself.
For some that may be God and for some that may mean the universe as a whole..
Yet for me I do believe in the power of positivity and the power of gratitude…
When we are positive we are surrounded by positivity and when we are truly grateful we tend to receive more to be grateful for…
It’s the law of attraction which I do fully believe in 🤗❤️🤗
So my friend remember that every day is a blessing, it’s a gift that’s been given to you… Always be grateful for what you have… Be grateful for another new day too! 🤗🤗
Happy First Day Of Spring 🌸❤
I dedicate today to my son who’s in the sky above… To let him know I miss him and I’m sending him birthday love… 💗💗..
I am a grieving mother…
I am the same yet I am different….
I am here, yet a part of me is gone forever..
I stand in the sunlight…
Yet I walk in the shadows of what was…
Cannot ever be ….
Until we meet again my son….
For all eternity 🙏💗🙏
Happy Birthday Michael
I Love You forever & beyond
The Hours Remain The Same
The last few days I caught myself stressing about the 4th being right around the corner and looking at the things I still need to do to make the bus ready and boy oh boy I’ve been a mess 😵😱😵.
So yesterday I meditated and prayed a lot because it was making anxious and sad that I might not be ready in 10 days… And this morning I woke up to an email from the organization in the Keys that said because they don’t have all the supplies needed down there yet that it wouldn’t be until AFTER the 15th before they will ask the volunteers to start going down there to help rebuild…
Although I did want to leave on Michael’s birthday I know that the “date” doesn’t matter cause it’s the journey itself that does… 😁😍😁
Moral of the story: Don’t let hurry worry get stuck in your mind cause the hours of the day don’t change so don’t stress out about the time. We don’t have to always get things done in one day.. So take your time, pace yourself and don’t let stress get in your way😁😉
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗🌻
Thinking about my upcoming journey a lot.. There’s been so many different emotions yet the one that overpowers them all is excitement… 😁🤗😁
Where to start which way to go first… Up, down, North, South, East or West… Flip a coin maybe?? Lol …the bus will be done within 2 weeks and I’m still waiting for the ok to go down to the keys and help.. so I guess we will see… 😀💕😀
One day at a time is all I can do yet it feels so good to know it’s happening.. So close and so exciting… A new chapter, a new beginning, a brand new life! 😍❤😘
Don’t be afraid of life transitions cause transitions happen all our life.. Baby to toddler, toddler to kid, kid to teen and teen to adult and it just keeps going… So don’t be afraid of life’s transitions cause when one chapter closes another one always begins 🤗💝
Goodnight Universe 🌻🤗🌻
Believe In Your Dreams and Your Goals
When we share our dreams and goals with others, many will not believe that it’s possible. Many will tell you that your dreams or goals are too big and that you’ll never reach them.. Some will put doubt and fear in your head as well… yet who’s dreams are they? Theirs or yours?🤔🤔🤔.
This morning I woke up thinking about all the people that thought I was crazy (after my son passed away) for wanting to get a bus and convert it into a living home on wheels. To travel all over the country sprinkling his ashes at all the beautiful places that we wanted too see and especially to do it alone.. 🤔😮🤔
It made me giggle and actually start laughing hard cause at one point all their doubts and negativity stated to make me doubt that I could do it too… 🤔🤔🤔 yet look at where I am now!
The bus is almost finished and my journey will soon begin and I can smile at all the doubters cause in my heart I knew I’d win 😁🤗😁.
Now when I look back at things I giggle and I laugh… cause I removed the negativity in my life and started to release the pain of my past. I believed with all my heart that I could make this dream come true, and I did exactly that with positivity and YOU..
So push all doubt out of your head and push negative people away from you.. They’re your dreams and it’s your life to live how you want too!!”
Have a fantabulous day world 🤗🌻🤗