3 Days and Counting

I Think I’m Gonna Puke

Hello World ๐ŸŒป Happy Day My Friends ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿค—
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Video story instead of a poem cause my head is all over the place ๐Ÿ˜ฎ. โฌ‡๏ธโฌ‡๏ธโฌ‡๏ธ
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Sooooooooo… It always makes me laugh when people say that I’m so strong for doing this cause it truly has nothing to do with how I feel inside… My strength is what makes me do it and walk through the fear but it doesn’t take away the fact that I’m a freaking basketcase and truly feel like I want to puke…๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ..It’s been 10 long months since I brought the bus home and started working on it and the fact that it’s all done and I’m hitting the road in 3 days truly makes me feel like I wanna puke hahaha… My emotions are all over the place, I can’t eat, my stomach is in knots and I truly wanna scream… ๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿคฏ๐Ÿ˜ฏ…Sooooooooo… The next few days I’ll just be making sure I’ve got all my ducks in a row and doing my best to breathe ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™„ but I wanted to say thank you to all of you that have stuck by me through this crazy journey of building the bus, my tears, my laughs, my everything…

Thank you so very much…I am truly grateful and love you all dearly! ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ™..

Let the countdown begin!! 3 days AHHHH ๐Ÿคฏ

Ricci ๐Ÿ’•

Don’t Stress On The End Result

Enjoy The Whole Journey Step By Step

Hello World and Happy Day My Friends ๐Ÿ’—

The last few days I’ve been totally focusing on finishing painting the bus and WOO HOO IT’S DONE ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—..

Except for a few touch-ups here and there, getting all the tape off and giving her a light wax… she’s now all pretty and shiny.. (See picsโฌ‡โฌ‡โฌ‡)

When I first brought her home I was so on a mission to get everything done asap and truly thought I would be on the road in a couple months..

HAHAHAHA NOT ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™„

I was so busy focusing on the end result instead of focusing on each step one at a time that I always wound up backtracking ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

Between the universe making me slow down or doing to much that I had know choice but to slow down and then of course changing my mind a few times, I felt like it was a never ending battle..๐Ÿ˜ฉ

When I finally did slow down and decided to take one thing at a time, everything started falling into place and I can now honestly look back and smile because I took my time, changed my mindset and focused on one part at a time and the rewards are on point…

I’m so happy with how she looks inside and out and now all that’s left is getting the new tires put on and hooking up the solar ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜ …

We get so caught up in the “I want it now!” mindset that we do tend to miss the steps in between and for every step forward we wind up taking a step or two back..

So my friends take your time when pursuing your dreams…

Dreams don’t have an expiration date and it’s so much better to slow down and take your time then to wind up backtracking cause you moved so fast that you missed a bunch of steps along the way…

As they say…

It’s not really about the end result is about the journey along the way ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—

So happy with the results ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—

Have a beautifully slow Sunday ๐Ÿ’—

Ricci ๐Ÿ’•

You Can Plan The Plan

But Not The Outcome


Hello World ๐Ÿค—

This morning I was talking to a friend about how when we make a plan, we tend to try to plan it all the way out to the end… and most of the time because of bumps along the way or because we change our minds…the outcome of the plan we made isn’t the same or turns out totally different then we planned it originally๐Ÿ˜ฑ 

It made me think about the bus ๐Ÿค”

When I first got the bus I really thought I knew exactly how I wanted the inside to be and since then have changed it a few times..๐Ÿ˜ฑ each time I’ve changed it, it’s turned out way better then my original plan, yet I still changed it from the original plan… ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿค”

So why do we plan things all the way to the end only for it to change down the line for whatever reason?? Hmmmmm ๐Ÿค”

That’s what made me think of this poem… 

I picked the background for the same reason… 

If you look at the road in the picture it looks like the end goes down a hill… Yet does it? 

It could be straight…it could turn… or it could be a dead end! 

We can’t predict how the road goes.. and we don’t know until we get there…๐Ÿ™„

Moral of this story… 

We can plan the plan yet we cannot plan the outcome… 

All we have is the here and now… and all we can do is take the steps that lead us to where we want to go… 

Yet we can’t ever assume or predict that our plan will turn out exactly how we planned it…๐Ÿ˜‰

Live in the moment my friends cause we cannot predict what will be… We only have the here and now cause the future’s not ours to see ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค—.. 

Just like the song “Que Sara Sara…. Whatever will be will be… The futures not ours to see…Que Sara Sara!” 

Goodnight Universe ๐Ÿ’—

Ricci ๐Ÿ’•

No More Resolutions

I’m Setting Intentions Instead


Hello World & Happy Day My Friends ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค—

The past couple of days I’ve been contemplating whether or not I’m going to make a few New Year’s resolutions ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿค”..

Then when I woke up this morning I thought… 

NOT.. 

Every year I make resolutions, I start out ok and then by the middle of the year they have gone out the window and then I start feeling guilty or I wind up being hard on myself for not following through…๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿค”

SOOOOOOO today I decided that instead of making “resolutions” I’m gonna set “intentions” instead… 

When we intend to do something and it doesn’t pan out, for me at least, I’m never ever as hard on myself as I am when I make a resolution and don’t stick with it ๐Ÿค”

So setting intentions of what I’d like to do and what I’d like to change is much more workable, for me anyway ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜‰

Nevertheless… 

I wanted to stop by and send a huge thank you to all of you, friends, family and all my followers that have stuck with me through a very difficult 2017 and send you all so much love and happiness today, for the New Year and beyond!!! 

Be safe if you’re going out … 

I actually am and haven’t in over 25 yrs ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿ˜ฑ so this is going to be very interesting hahahaha… 

Have fun, smile and don’t forget to laugh..A LOT ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿค—..

MUCH LOVE TO YOU ALL AND HAPPY NEW YEAR .. 

MAY 2018 BRING YOU ALL HAPPINESS, LOVE, ABUNDANCE AND TONS OF LAUGHS… 

LOVE YOU ALL HUGE HUGE HUGE ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—

Ricci ๐Ÿ’•

Gratitude

Kindness Is Magic

Hello World,

WOW WOW..SO VERY VERY GRATEFUL๐Ÿค—.

First and foremost … Thank you Cobs @thecobweboriumemporium for the beautiful tag… It’s definitely getting hung up in the bus…๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค— And yes your little sweet note made me cry..๐Ÿ˜ข happy tears though ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿค—  

I feel like the universe is smiling down on me cause this has been an incredible 2 days…1st getting Cobs beautiful tag and then the wonderful gifts from a new friend on Instagram, then winning a contest ๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿ˜ฎ … I’m totally on cloud nine and so very very grateful for the kindness I’ve received ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ™๐Ÿค— 

SOOOOOOO as most of you all know, I’ve been converting a bus so I can travel all over the country and spread my son’s ashes at all the places we wanted to go see… It’s been just a few months since I got the bus (with the help of so many of you) and my healing journey is right around the corner.

I’ve slowly been getting pantry things I’ll need for my journey and making lists of things that will be road worthy, tiny fridge worthy, good quality, healthy and storable.

 I love veggies, fruits, smoothies and salads and although I cannot say that I’m vegan because I cannot give up cheese, eggs and seafood (not yet anyway) I was talking to my friend Dana (a vegan smoothie bowl Queen) and had just asked her to make me a list of protein powders and other things like chia seeds etc that would help me stay healthy on the road. 

And then this happened..๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿค—. 

An amazing company Kura Nutrition http://www.kuranutrition.com read my story and sent me a bunch of their plant based protein powders, a really cool drink shaker maker ๐Ÿค—, 6 really yummy looking recipes and the sweetest handwritten note ever ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’— so I had to do this shout-out cause I am beyond grateful… I’ll totally be posting pics of the yummy things I’ll make with them on the road ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’— thank you @kuranutrition so very much…๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค—

THEN LAST NIGHT…. 

I won the coolest double bike rack from a contest that a couple of van living guys that I follow on Instagram @therollingvan  had. I’m overly excited and can’t thank you enough too๐Ÿค— talk about cool…

It will look so good on the bus ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค— 

Guess it’s time to get in shape lol lol hey maybe that’s what the universe is telling me… ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿค”

Time to get in shape Ricci…. hahaha ๐Ÿ˜‚

I’m in shock ๐Ÿ˜ฎ and NO I’M NOT AN AFFILIATE for either and I rarely do shout-outs… 

I just had to share my excitement and my gratitude… especially to Cobs and Kura Nutrition because those gifts came from the heart, pure kindness and well.. there are no words only love for them both ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—

Please check out her blog @thecobweboriumemporium and Kura Nutritions shop online with their great healthy products and The Rolling Van on Instagram or YouTube and their amazing adventures traveling the country ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—

I may sound like an advertisement but oh well cause I’m so grateful and excited too..

Thank you so much my friends so very very very grateful ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ™๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿค— 
Kindness is AMAZING

Ricci ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’—

It’s Your Journey

It’s YOUR Life


Hello World

Have you ever been so shocked by someone else’s behavior that it truly made you feel like you weren’t sure if it was you or if it was them????? ๐Ÿ˜ต๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿค”.

Well that’s exactly what I’ve been going through for the past week.. So much so that I had to take a break from social media to get my head back on straight and take a good look at the situation and process it fully… ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿค”…

I’ve always been a people person as well as being very spontaneous yet had always worried about what others thought about what I was doing and about myself in general ๐Ÿ™„ ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ˜ฉ..

It took me a loooonnnnggg time to not worry about what others thought about me, especially when it came to my doing what I needed to do for me and my peace of mind yet as we all look for a little validation, it totally threw me for a huge loop when someone I know (or should I say I thought I knew) stopped talking to me because I haven’t begun my journey in the bus yet! ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ˜’… 

Yes I went there… 

Not being sure if it was them or me because I don’t like disappointing people in general ๐Ÿ˜–

I have never been one that’s afraid of change and I don’t have any problem with being spontaneous .. Yet this is HUGE and being that I am embarking on this journey alone (something else I’ve never ever done) “I” need to know that all my ducks are in a row with the bus and with myself especially emotionally ๐Ÿ˜

The journey in the bus is a huge huge huge life change for me and for the first time in my life I actually want to do it right in every manner.. 

Although it is taking me longer than even I anticipated.. I’m taking my time.. So that when I drive away I’ll know that everything with the bus is mechanically sound and that I am truly emotionally ready to begin my journey to heal from the loss of my son and begin MY new life ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’—

What others may feel isn’t really relevant because this is my journey and however long it takes me to begin is OK.. 

It’s my journey to take when and only when…. 

I AM READY!!! ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’—

Ricci ๐Ÿ’•

Divorce Your Past

To Move On To The New


Hello World, 

Yesterday was a very cold and rainy day and as I was painting the counter and shelves it hit me hard that my journey is just a couple weeks away and I lost it๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ข

I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out how to let go of the sadness and pain because this was supposed to be  and Michael’s journey.. ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ˜ข

Although i know he’s with me daily in mind, heart and spirit, I couldn’t get past the fact that his physical isn’t with me and I literally cried all day and cried myself to sleep.๐Ÿ˜ข

I started doubting if I can really travel around alone to all the places he wanted us to see sprinkling his ashes along the way and this morning I woke up with this poem in my head.. ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’—

I know it’s going to be a very emotional journey yet I know in my heart and soul that this is meant to be and I believe yesterday was just a OMG IT’S REALLY HAPPENING day and this morning I remembered that I’m not letting go to forget… I’m letting go to move on with my life… 

To live and to begin a new journey, a new chapter in my life and although a tad scary it is time and I am ready. 

Thank you to everyone that has helped me get to this point and for all the love and support received and continue to receive… For you all I am eternally grateful ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’—

The countdown to my new beginning, my journey to heal has begun! 

Goodnight Universe ๐Ÿ’•

Ricci ๐Ÿ’•