Always Comes From Your Heart
Hello World & Happy Day My Friends
This past week for me has been pretty crazy working on the outside of the bus and then of course the weather decided to take a turn and rain for 3 days (gotta love Florida.. NOT) which put a halt to what I’ve been doing 😩 and on top of that we had a beautiful full blue moon which never fails to heighten my emotions and bring up a lot of past memories some of which as you know are devestating for me 😩
I, as you all know, truly believe there’s nothing wrong with looking back on your life and reflecting on how far you’ve come, to reminisce about the good times and to reflect on lessons learned and not learned yet, as long as you don’t get stuck there and allow your past to stop you from moving forward… 😉
Well I got a tad stuck in my past only seeing the sad, the hurt and pain and missing my son and my chica badly and last night something happened cause when I woke up this morning I felt so much love in my heart and was flooded with beautiful memories 💗
Now I don’t know if it was a dream cause I rarely remember them or if it was the universe reminding me of all the happy times but it made me realize that in order to remember the happy times more than the sad we must look from our hearts….
We all have happy and sad times, the sad ones just stick out more… So when the hurt and sadness pops up use love to push it out the door….
Cause all the love you have within will always help you see… That’s there’s way more happy then sad times, so grab onto those memories 💗🙏
Have a beautiful day world 💗
Cause They Always Come Back
In the past few days I’ve had a bunch of feelings and emotions pop up out of nowhere yet because I’ve learned to allow them rather then to fight or stuff them, I’ve also learned that I feel 100% better when I deal with them and work through them right away.
In the past if it was fear of something or sadness I’d stuff the feelings or ignore them as if they weren’t there, trying to be a “strong ” person and not let things get to me… Showing your feelings isn’t a sign off weakness, it’s actually a sign off strength, a sign that does you are REAL yet society doesn’t help in that manner and neither does education and or sometimes people.
We are taught from a child to NOT cry, NOT to show or say how we truly feel, NOT to let others see when your hurting etc and I just don’t get that because it always comes back no matter what it comes back 10 fold, and it’s harder to deal with cause it brings up years of past shit and it when we last expect it too and then we just have to deal and heal from it all over again😡🤔😡
Feelings are a part of our being and to hide them is hiding who we truly are!! Always always allow yourself to feel.. Whether you’re mad, glad, sad or scared don’t hide how you feel, don’t stuff them and don’t pretend they aren’t there cause when we deal with them head on they are temporary.. When we stuff and hide them they last forever until we deal with them head on. So feel them, show them, allow them and process them cause when you do you’ll be glad you did!!
Goodnight Universe 🤗❤
Today marks 2 yrs since my son went on a different journey and although he is no longer with me physically and I miss him so so so very much, he will be in my heart and soul forever. ❤
We all go through difficulties and losses throughout our lives yet this is the hardest journey I’ve even been on and I truly agree that no child should ever go away before a parent because they truly take a huge part of you with them…. Am I ok today NO I’M NOT… Will I be okay… YES I WILL…. yet today I’m dedicating my words to my son… “To honor a life well lived and a legacy left behind!”
As he always said: “There is no end, we just go on a different journey!!” Michael R. Jones
I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, forever and always my baby you’ll be…I will always always love you Michael today, tomorrow and forever !! I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH… Until We Meet Again… REST IN PARADISE MY LOVE ❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤
Our World Needs More People That Truly Care
Thank you to all that have been that shoulder for me…
Thank you to all that have wiped my tears and lent me their light when mine was dim…
Thank you for sharing you with me and for all that have stuck with me on this journey and to all those that have prayed and continue to pray for my days to get easier and for this pain to be lighter too bear…
For all of you I am thankful, for you all I am grateful…
I know the feelings will always be here because the only constant in this world is love and love out lives us all.❤
❤ Goodnight Universe ❤🙏❤ Dreams World ❤
It Really Helps Calm You Down too
I love the smell of lavender it’s such a soothing scent… Yet taking deep breaths are soothing too especially when your emotions are spent…😢❤😢
We all know this is a hard weekend for me yet with all of your love and support it gets easier a little each day… So I just wanted to say thank you my friends and send a reminder your way…😘🌻
We all go through different emotions, some happy and some very sad… Take a deep breath or two… And when you find yourself out of sync… Deep breathes will calm you down too…🌻❤🌻😘🌻❤
There are a few items I still need to get so I can complete the bus and make it livable.. If anyone knows where I can get a 2000 watt or higher inverter, a 200 watt solar panel kit, an electric cooler or mini fridge to help me complete the bus, It will be greatly appreciated. 😘❤😘
My gofundme link is still active for anyone that would like to help… Or if anyone has one of those items they would be willing to donate please email me, send me a direct message or comment below. The active link is in my bio. Please click Read More to read the fully story and help if you are able or share the link so WE can continue converting the bus and move forward with my journey to heal and honor my son.. much love my friends 🙏❤🙏
Have a beautiful day world 🌻
They Are Your Real True Friends
Don’t ever take for granted the people that go out of their way to wipe away your tears and do whatever they can to help you get outta your head…. Today one of my friends did that out of the blue… How she knew I was having a very difficult day is beyond me yet there she was ready to wipe my tears and allow me to feel every emotion I was going through and i am beyond grateful. those are the people that are true Earth angels and don’t ever let them go!!! ❤😇❤
Most of you know what I’m going through and that this is a very hard month for me… Yet after witnessing a beautiful morning of kindness, it made me miss my son even more…
Michael was a beautiful Earth Angel and touched more hearts then I ever imagined… The 30th will be two years that he went on a different journey and as you know I’m not one to hide my feelings I’ve learned to embrace them and allow myself to feel…
Yet as much as I’m trying to embrace the 30th and make it a day full of beautiful memories I’m having a really hard time and I just wanted you all to know I will not let you all go…
Thank you for always being here, thank you for wiping my tears… Thank you for sharing your hearts with me, thanks for taking away my fears…
I just needed to say thank you because you all mean the world to me.. thank you for being my Earth Angels and allowing me to simply be me… Much love to you all my friends… For you all I am truly grateful..
Much love from all of me to ask of you ❤
Goodnight Universe 🙏😇🙏
There are a few items I still need to get so I can complete the bus and make it livable.. If anyone knows where I can get a 2000 watt or higher inverter, a 200 watt solar panel kit, an electric cooler or mini fridge to help me complete the bus, It will be greatly appreciated. 🙏
My gofundme link is still active for anyone that would like to help… Or if anyone has one of those items they would be willing to donate please email me, send me a direct message or comment below. The active link is below. Please click Read More to read the fully story and help if you are able or share the link so WE can continue converting the bus and move forward with my journey to heal and honor my son.. much love my friends🙏❤🙏
Don’t ever let the hard days stop you from moving towards your dreams… It will get tough, it will be hard yet it’s not as hard as it seems… Our mind can be a tricky place and will try to talk you out of it… Don’t let the thoughts of doubt it fear make you want to quit. 🤔
There’s no better feeling that you can have when your dreams come into view… So keep on going, don’t you stop and finish what you need to do… 😊
You’ve come to far to stop right now so don’t give up on it… Cause once that dream is in your hands you’ll feel proud cause you did not quit 🙋👏🙋👏
I’m so close to bringing the bus home.. and making my dreams come true .. thank you all for helping and for all you do. The link is below so please help me if you can or share the link so I can continue on with my plans. To spread my son’s ashes at the places he wanted to see, to continue on this journey of healing and to honor him and me. Thank you thank you thank you ALL ❤
🌻🤗🌻 Have A Beautiful Day World 🌻😊🌻