Take Pride In How Far You’ve Come
The past couple of days I decided to take a break from all my social media accounts and focus 100% on finishing the inside of the bus (not a great multitasker) and now the inside is 98% finished🤗😀🤗😀
I just need to make sure things are secure so I don’t have an avalanche driving down the road and finish putting in the things i need for my journey 💗🤗💗.. Will post pics this evening cause on Monday the new tires and solar system gets done and omg I’ll be ready to begin🤗💗🤗💗🤗💗🤗💗🤗
Of course I changed a few things and made more storage space cause I really don’t like wasted space and needed it too yet I knew that would happen😉😮😉… Especially since this will be my home for a long time 🤗
Yet I’m really happy with how it turned out and it made me take a look at where I stated, where I am today and where I’m going and that’s when this poem popped into my head 🤔😮🤗..
We get all happy when we reach a goal yet we forget where we came from… So don’t forget how you started and all the work you’ve done… Have faith in where you’re heading too & take pride in how far you’ve come… Cause the journey is about all the little steps and all the challenges you’ve overcome 💕☺💕☺💕
Have a beYOUtiful day world 🤗🌻🤗
It’s OK To Show Them Too!
Last night I was talking with a very good friend that was upset because he was always told growing up that a man isn’t supposed to cry! A man isn’t supposed to show his feelings and that it makes him weak if he does!
THAT IS ONE OF MY BIGGEST HUGEST MOST GIGANTIC PET PEEVES!!!
WHY AREN’T MEN SUPPOSED TO SHOW THEIR TRUE FEELINGS??
WHY ARE THEY TAUGHT NOT TO SHOW THEM??
THEY ARE ALLOWED & THEY SHOULD!!!!!!
I raised my boys to know that it’s OK to cry, it’s OK to show how you feel no matter what and every one of their girlfriends throughout the years loved that part of them and I do too!
Society sucks in that manner because there is nothing wrong with crying! There is nothing wrong with showing your true feelings..
In fact it’s healthy to do so!!!
Women are told they are too sensitive when we show our emotions and men are taught not to show them!!
How ass backwards is that?????
To all the men out there that were told that showing your feeling isn’t OK… BULL!!!
To all the women out there that are told you’re too sensitive… BULL!!!
Showing how you feel is showing that you are real… So allow yourself to honour your feelings and allow yourself to be real!!!
There’s A Huge Difference
“Sometimes Letting Go Of Things Is An Act Of Far Greater Power Than Defending Or Hanging On!”~Eckart Tolle
Yesterday was a difficult day for me emotionally. As I was arranging where I wanted things to go in the bus, taking things out of the RV and putting things into the bus, I came across Michael’s laptop which I haven’t touched or looked at since he passed away and i decided it was time to take a look and yep I lost it 😢 it made me wonder if I can really go on this journey of sprinkling his ashes at all the places we wanted to see together 🙄🤔…
I had just bought it for him the Christmas before he passed and there were so many writings and songs he wrote on it that it totally knocked me for a loop.. Yet at the same time it made me think a lot about the difference between giving up and letting go… Of course I’m not going to throw his laptop away and decided that I’m going to save everything into a special folder and use it to write about my/our upcoming journey… Although it I know will be difficult I believe it will be healing too as it will feel like he’s writing with me..
Moral of this story: Don’t let something difficult or painful make you doubt if what you’re doing is right or make you want to give up… Cause there’s a huge difference between giving up and letting go!!! 💗🤗
Have a beautiful day world🌻💗🌻
This morning I woke up thinking about the bus and how far I’ve come and It made me smile really big at all the work I’ve done☺
I started to think about all the times I started to lose faith and belief and I thought about all of the people that helped me keep the faith and believe that my dreams would come true and it is happening right before my eyes 😀💗😀.
So many times I wanted to give up and it’s truly with determination, the support of so many beautiful souls that believed in me when I didn’t, people that held me up when my faith started to waiver and truly believing that kept me going and wow my dream is literally right around the corner!!! 🤗💗🤗..
Moral of this story:
Whenever your faith starts to waiver and you stop believing in you.. Hold on tight to faith and believing cause that’s what makes dreams come true!💗🤗💗
Have a beautiful day world 🤗
That Make Or Break Your Day
🤗 BUS UPDATE 🤗
First and foremost I want to say thank you to all that sent love and support for me on my sons birthday. It is still a very difficult time for me and you all helped get me through a difficult day and I am forever grateful to you all 🤗🤗🤗 🙏🙏🙏💗💗💗
I spent the day crying and laughing working on the bus and focused on what Michael would have been doing and today while getting frustrated over the little things this poem popped into my head🙄 Go figure huh ..Needless to say I changed my mindset, tackled some little things and before I stopped I actually remembered to take some photos for YOU 😀😄😀.
The foam flooring my daughter bought me is in (except for one piece in front of the fridge that’s driving me insane) The extension of the countertop is complete and now encloses the fridge (that’s where the white sheer curtain is hanging) I took that lazyboy recliner out because it was too big and I have a surprise for you next week… That space is now where my two doggie beds are and they love it. I put a six and a half foot shelf up above the counter and sink that I still have to put a lip on so stuff doesn’t slide off and I still have to paint/seal the wood on both the countertop and shelf.. I took out the boxspring of the bed and my son made me a platform for the mattress so now I have 18 inches of storage under the bed. I have to hook up the water and faucet and the inverter and solar system which will all be done next week along with the really cool surprise for you that I am so excited about.. 😄🙃. I still have a bunch to do yet omg I’m loving it and of course I keep changing my mind on stuff like the window privacy panels third times a charm🙄 still need more color cause it’s so blue and yellow (Michael’s favorite colors) yet I gotta brighten it up cause I LOVE colors 💗
So my friends here’s some pics because if it wasn’t for all of you, all of your love, support, donations and belief in me I would not be where I am and I know without a doubt that Michael is smiling at us all!!! WOO HOO MY FRIENDS IT’S HAPPENING… Much love to you all and thank you thank you thank you.. I AM GRATEFUL
I dedicate today to my son who’s in the sky above… To let him know I miss him and I’m sending him birthday love… 💗💗..
I am a grieving mother…
I am the same yet I am different….
I am here, yet a part of me is gone forever..
I stand in the sunlight…
Yet I walk in the shadows of what was…
Cannot ever be ….
Until we meet again my son….
For all eternity 🙏💗🙏
Happy Birthday Michael
I Love You forever & beyond
The Hours Remain The Same
The last few days I caught myself stressing about the 4th being right around the corner and looking at the things I still need to do to make the bus ready and boy oh boy I’ve been a mess 😵😱😵.
So yesterday I meditated and prayed a lot because it was making anxious and sad that I might not be ready in 10 days… And this morning I woke up to an email from the organization in the Keys that said because they don’t have all the supplies needed down there yet that it wouldn’t be until AFTER the 15th before they will ask the volunteers to start going down there to help rebuild…
Although I did want to leave on Michael’s birthday I know that the “date” doesn’t matter cause it’s the journey itself that does… 😁😍😁
Moral of the story: Don’t let hurry worry get stuck in your mind cause the hours of the day don’t change so don’t stress out about the time. We don’t have to always get things done in one day.. So take your time, pace yourself and don’t let stress get in your way😁😉
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗🌻