Is Right Inside Your Heart
Hello World & Happy Day My Friends 💖🙏💖
For the past week as I’ve been doing the last few things on the bus, I’ve been reflecting a lot about my past and my upcoming new life and journey and I asked myself when was I the happiest?
Of course the first thing that popped into my head was having my children 🧑🧑👧.. but then I truly couldn’t think of anything that truly made me happy other than my kids 🤔
For most of my life I thought it was outside things that brought me happiness…
I had a a great job, made good money, got my children and myself everything that we wanted, went on amazing vacations etc yet when I really thought about all that, none of it made me truly happy…
What did make me happy was the laughs, the times we went camping and laughed so hard we cried. Cuddling on the couch watching movies…Watching them grow up, graduating from school etc and seeing them play, laugh and smile…
Those were truly the happiest times of my life and continue to be 💖🤗💖…
The little things that make you FEEL!!💖
So my friends do not look outside yourself to find your happy place… Happiness isn’t a destination it’s not a marathon race!!
So if you want true happiness the place you need to start… It truly within yourself cause happiness comes from your heart!!! 🤗💖🤗
Have A Happy Day World
Goodnight Universe 🌟💖🌟
Always Comes From Your Heart
Hello World & Happy Day My Friends
This past week for me has been pretty crazy working on the outside of the bus and then of course the weather decided to take a turn and rain for 3 days (gotta love Florida.. NOT) which put a halt to what I’ve been doing 😩 and on top of that we had a beautiful full blue moon which never fails to heighten my emotions and bring up a lot of past memories some of which as you know are devestating for me 😩
I, as you all know, truly believe there’s nothing wrong with looking back on your life and reflecting on how far you’ve come, to reminisce about the good times and to reflect on lessons learned and not learned yet, as long as you don’t get stuck there and allow your past to stop you from moving forward… 😉
Well I got a tad stuck in my past only seeing the sad, the hurt and pain and missing my son and my chica badly and last night something happened cause when I woke up this morning I felt so much love in my heart and was flooded with beautiful memories 💗
Now I don’t know if it was a dream cause I rarely remember them or if it was the universe reminding me of all the happy times but it made me realize that in order to remember the happy times more than the sad we must look from our hearts….
We all have happy and sad times, the sad ones just stick out more… So when the hurt and sadness pops up use love to push it out the door….
Cause all the love you have within will always help you see… That’s there’s way more happy then sad times, so grab onto those memories 💗🙏
Have a beautiful day world 💗
This morning while having my coffee my friend started taking about regrets and how she wished she wouldn’t have done this or that throughout her life and it made me think 🤔🤔🤔
So I asked her why she doesn’t do those things now and she couldn’t give me a reason why she couldn’t 🙄🤔🙄.
All our lives we are told we have to do this, we have to do that… And we are also taught that we have to earn the right to do something we love or we’re told as a child that something we want to do like being an writer, a dancer or an actress isn’t a feasible career… Hmmmmm?? 🤔🤔🤔🤔
There is no set time for you to do the things you love to do..
As they say..
“Dreams don’t have an expiration date!”
So follow your instincts, follow your heart, follow your passion it’s now time to start!.
Have a beautiful day world 🤗💗🤗💗🤗
Tonight while having a torrential downpour something kept telling me to go for a walk in the rain.
At first I even thought it was crazy cause when I say pouring I mean the sky opened up and just dumped and still is yet that little voice inside of me kept saying go it’s OK go.. so I did and I got so drenched that my feet and hands were literally pruned lol lol it was an amazing feeling like being cleansed by the universe… (I love walking in the rain…)
Yet when I got back my neighbor said I was crazy and courageous for walking in a storm such as we are having (did I mention there was lightning in the far far far distance⚡)
It made me think about the little voice that told me it was OK… That I’d be OK 🤗 and I was and am.. 🌧😌
I guess the moral of this story is: So many times we go against what we feel within and wind up regretting it and tonight although that little voice was telling me to go for a walk in a crazy ass rain storm.. I listened and I feel amazing.. 🤗🌧🤗
Listen to what your gut says even if it’s something as silly as going for a walk in a torrential downpour cause listening to that voice within is the most courageous thing we can do!!!
Goodnight universe!!! 😁🌧😁
When You Live A Positive Life
As Children are Taught The Golden Rules.. Do Onto Others, As You would have them do into you… I haven’t lived that way all my life but now I truly do… And I can actually truly say I’ve lived most of my life like that too 🤗❤
Today was an incredible day, a heartwarming and productive day on the bus too…. Yet tonight a very special friend that has turned into my Family said something in a response to one of my posts on Instagram that made me stop and think… 🤔
After my son passed away I became a very bitter, angry and very depressed soul, I lost me for over 18 months and when I made the decision to change my life and get me back it wasn’t an easy task… I was always a happy happy made everyone smile type of person and when I a started being me again life surrounded me with the most incredible souls and I wrote this because I’m so grateful for all of you and because it’s really true too……..🤔🙄
That saying what comes around goes around is really very true… Cause when you live your life in a positive way, life smiles right back at you 😁❤
I’m now only needing help to get the 2000 watt inverter and the 200 watt solar panel kit for me to have electricity inside without using the engine batteries while stopped at night. The active link is below for anyone that can help or share the link if you can and Please click on “Read More” under the picture of me and my son to read all about me and my journey 😘😍
Thank you all for sharing you… I am 🙏🤗
Goodnight Universe ❤🤗
Because Happiness Comes From Within
We often think that time and money will bring us happiness and joy… We think like that because that’s what it takes to get our big boy toys… 🙄🤔🙄
Yet neither time or money will give you true happiness in your heart… YOU have to do that all by yourself and within you is where happiness starts ❤🤔❤🤔❤
As I was working in the bus this morning this poem popped in my head because even though it’s crazy hot and crazy humid I was singing, dancing and sweating up a storm while painting the wheelchair ramp… I had such a happy feeling going on within my heart that I had to stop and write this…🤗❤
Life doesn’t give you happiness… You have to go within to get it…. Life only gives you time and space, it’s up to you to fill it 🤗❤
On another note… A beautiful soul that saw my gofundme messaged me on my blog and sent me a gift card to purchase the little fridge I needed for the bus WOO HOO ❤🤗❤ I’M SO VERY GRATEFUL… so now I’m down to only needing help to get the 2000 watt inverter and the 200 watt solar panel kit for me to have electricity inside without using the engine batteries while stopped at night. The active link is below for anyone that can help… Please click on “Read More” under the picture of me and my son to read my story.
Thank you all so very much for all your love and support… I truly am grateful ❤🙏❤
They Are Your Real True Friends
Don’t ever take for granted the people that go out of their way to wipe away your tears and do whatever they can to help you get outta your head…. Today one of my friends did that out of the blue… How she knew I was having a very difficult day is beyond me yet there she was ready to wipe my tears and allow me to feel every emotion I was going through and i am beyond grateful. those are the people that are true Earth angels and don’t ever let them go!!! ❤😇❤
Most of you know what I’m going through and that this is a very hard month for me… Yet after witnessing a beautiful morning of kindness, it made me miss my son even more…
Michael was a beautiful Earth Angel and touched more hearts then I ever imagined… The 30th will be two years that he went on a different journey and as you know I’m not one to hide my feelings I’ve learned to embrace them and allow myself to feel…
Yet as much as I’m trying to embrace the 30th and make it a day full of beautiful memories I’m having a really hard time and I just wanted you all to know I will not let you all go…
Thank you for always being here, thank you for wiping my tears… Thank you for sharing your hearts with me, thanks for taking away my fears…
I just needed to say thank you because you all mean the world to me.. thank you for being my Earth Angels and allowing me to simply be me… Much love to you all my friends… For you all I am truly grateful..
Much love from all of me to ask of you ❤
Goodnight Universe 🙏😇🙏
There are a few items I still need to get so I can complete the bus and make it livable.. If anyone knows where I can get a 2000 watt or higher inverter, a 200 watt solar panel kit, an electric cooler or mini fridge to help me complete the bus, It will be greatly appreciated. 🙏
My gofundme link is still active for anyone that would like to help… Or if anyone has one of those items they would be willing to donate please email me, send me a direct message or comment below. The active link is below. Please click Read More to read the fully story and help if you are able or share the link so WE can continue converting the bus and move forward with my journey to heal and honor my son.. much love my friends🙏❤🙏