When Nothing Is What You Want To Do
Today when I woke up I actually felt so relaxed that I didn’t want to get up and do anything and I immediately started self-criticizing myself for not wanting to do anything but relax all day 😮
My mind immediately went to that you’ve got things to do get up now mindset 😮🤔😮🤔 and then my neighbor ask me why I wasn’t working in the bus today which led me to believe that I should get off my butt and do something yet my little voice within kept saying NO 😮
Why we do that I don’t know and I do know that I am my worst critic yet I also know that it’s OK to just BE… I didn’t have anything pressing that needed to get done..I’m not on a time frame and It’s a beautiful perfect fall day to just enjoy the day after an all night torrential downpour and I decided that rather than working on the bus I was gonna just chill.. 🙃🍃🙃
I sat outside listening to the rustling of the leaves in the wind and feeling the perfect fall breeze and said NOPE not gonna do anything today 😉🤗😉 and yet went back and fourth in my mind for a while until I said NO.. Chill day lol😉🤗😉
Moral of this story: Don’t be so hard on yourself on days you don’t want to do anything.. As long as you don’t have anything pressing the do… Sit back, relax and do you cause you are worth it 💗🤗💗
Have a beYOUtiful day world🤗💗
“Sometimes The Most Important Thing In Your Whole Day, Is The Rest We Take Between Two Deep Breaths!” Etty Hillesum
Last night while reading the diary of Etty Hillesum, I came across the above quote and it made me think of how we constantly put everything and everyone before ourselves, sticking ourselves on the back burner with the “I’ll take care of me later” mindset and it hit me kinda hard🤔
Family comes first, kids and significant others come first, our job and careers come first… HALT!!!!! 🤔😠🤔😠🤔
What about ourselves???
We make it a daily habit to take care of everyone and everything else yet the most important thing to do is to take care of ourselves and we totally slack on it and then wonder where frustration, resentments and all that other crap comes from! 🙄
Self-care is extremely important & should be a habit too… So start making self-care a DAILY habit & start taking care of you! 💗🙏💗🙏💗🙏💗
It Always Knows What’s Up
Yesterday I took a break from the bus and decided to work on some crafts… My head was telling me “no work on the bus!” Yet my gut kept saying no… 🤔🙄🤔
I use to make pretty covers for journals, wish boxes and different frames for my quotes and poems all the time, making them with clay and it was very relaxing and helped me get outta my head… yet I stopped because I felt I lost my creativity mindset and tucked all that stuff away 😮
Yesterday I decided to listened to what my gut said and got out all my clay and sat on the bed in the bus and knocked out 4 pretty boxes for some friends and it actually felt really good to do so and I didn’t work on the bus at all 😉😁😉.
Moral of this story: Our gut always sends us signals of what we should or shouldn’t do… So listen to what your gut says cause it won’t ever lie to you!!! 💗🤗💗.
Have a beautiful day world 🤗🌻
Today I woke up feeling kinda stuck even though I’m making so much progress on the bus..I felt oddly stuck🤔 my dreams have been very intense which doesn’t make for a goodnight sleep and whenever I feel that way I do what I call a life review🤔🙃🙄.
I take a look at where I’m at and try to figure out why or what is making me feel this way and what in my life is prompting the feelings🤔 it’s usually just a matter of changing something..a behavior or action that is no longer serving me well…😌😮🤔.
Do I always figure it out.. No… Yet taking a look and doing a life review always helps take the anxiety or feeling away and helps me get unstuck 🙃😁🙃 and when I do figure it out I usually laugh and just shake my head 😂
Moral of this story: it takes courage to take a look at your life with humor and compassion.. Yet when you do a life review you’ll see the parts of your life that need action ☺😊☺.
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗
There’s A Huge Difference
“Sometimes Letting Go Of Things Is An Act Of Far Greater Power Than Defending Or Hanging On!”~Eckart Tolle
Yesterday was a difficult day for me emotionally. As I was arranging where I wanted things to go in the bus, taking things out of the RV and putting things into the bus, I came across Michael’s laptop which I haven’t touched or looked at since he passed away and i decided it was time to take a look and yep I lost it 😢 it made me wonder if I can really go on this journey of sprinkling his ashes at all the places we wanted to see together 🙄🤔…
I had just bought it for him the Christmas before he passed and there were so many writings and songs he wrote on it that it totally knocked me for a loop.. Yet at the same time it made me think a lot about the difference between giving up and letting go… Of course I’m not going to throw his laptop away and decided that I’m going to save everything into a special folder and use it to write about my/our upcoming journey… Although it I know will be difficult I believe it will be healing too as it will feel like he’s writing with me..
Moral of this story: Don’t let something difficult or painful make you doubt if what you’re doing is right or make you want to give up… Cause there’s a huge difference between giving up and letting go!!! 💗🤗
Have a beautiful day world🌻💗🌻
Take Charge Of How You Feel
This morning as I was making a little list of things I want to do… It made me stop a think a bit about how I want to feel too 🤔.
We tend to judge how we feel on the things that we have done… We forget to stop and appreciate where we’ve been and how far we’ve come 🙄🙄….
So I decided to make a TO-BE-LIST and take charge of how I want to feel today.. Cause it truly is only up to me how I feel throughout my day… No one has control of how I think or how I react… Cause I’m the one that makes that choice and that my friends is a fact 😁🤗😁🤗😁.
Working on the countertop and having running water in the bus today and I feel great about it and very productive… I’m down to only needing help with $384 to finish getting the inverter, the batteries and the solar panel kit… My gofundme link is still active and below for anyone that can help or share the link so I can make the goal of being in the road on my son’s birthday October 4th. 🤗❤🤗 Thank you to everyone for all your love and support for it’s helped me get where I am today and I’m so very grateful ❤🙏❤… Have a beYOUtiful day world… back to work I go! 🤗🌻🤗
When We Look At Things That Way
Yesterday I couldn’t get my thoughts to settle down.. it was a very emotional day and I couldn’t stop and think… Of why my head would not shut up and let me swim not sink… 🤔🙄🤔
We all go though days like that and there’s really no reason why… yesterday was a day like that for me so I just processed it and cried… today I’m feeling better and I woke up with a smile 🌻🤗🌻 I’m back to working on the bus at least for a little while 😀🤗…
Not every day will be a sad one, not every day will be good… Just process what you’re going through and go through the day as you should… Cause life is filled with lessons when we look at them that way… And when we fully realize that we’ll have a much better day… 🤗🌻😀
I’m back to working on the bus so I can begin my journey and keep my promise to my son spreading his ashes where I promised him I would and live our dream ❤ The total I need to get everything in order for me to have electricity to run the fridge and other things while I’m stopped at night without using the engine battery is down to $554 and I am so grateful.😀❤🤗
I am still needing a 2000 watt inverter and two 12volt marine batteries as well as a 200 watt solar panel kit which would keep the inverter batteries charged at all times 🤗 My gofundme link is still active and is below for anyone that can help or if anyone knows where I can get those things cheaper please let me know. 🤗🙏
My goal date to embark on my journey is my son’s birthday October 4th and I’m so close, it’s right around the corner and I’m so excited to begin ❤🤗❤
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗