There Really Is A Difference
This morning I was reading a comment my friend Cobs (@thecobweboriumemporium) made about my post yesterday and it really hit home because she reminded me that there is a difference between being scared and fear… 🤔🙄🤔
Yesterday in my post I said that it was a tad scary knowing that my journey and a new chapter in my life was about to begin and it is true…
It’s something new and something I’ve never done yet there is no fear at all because I know I can always go home and my reasoning for getting the bus was also because if I pull into somewhere that just doesn’t feel right I could just get in the drivers seat and drive off without having to go outside😉
I get so many people that ask me if I’m afraid and or don’t get how a female could travel around the country in a bus ALONE without being in total fear.. Yet Being that I listen to my gut and or follow my instincts I’m actually very excited and not fearful at all. 🤗😀🤗
Fear is a noun and can also be used as a verb. Scared is an adjective. Fear is an emotion. Scared is the state of experiencing fear like being spooked at a haunted house 😨 Fear is usually long term and much harder to push past than the temporary feeling of getting or being scared.. 🤔😌😮
As my friend Cobs said… Being scared is your bodies way of telling you to be aware and to take a look around and make sure no dangers there…
So when you’re starting something new and you feel you can’t go on… Push past that scary feeling and keep on moving on ☺🤗
Have a beYOUtiful day world and thank you Cobs for the inspiration my post today.. Love you huge my friend 💗🤗💗
They Always Find Their Way Back
I haven’t posted a goodnight post in a while and not because of any reason other then I couldn’t think of anything to write 🤔
Most of you know that all my posts, poems and quotes are written by me and that they really are about what I’m actually dealing with myself at that moment in time.. 🙄.. (It truly does take me longer to find a background image for my writing than it does to write what I write lol)
Yet I’ve learned through my writing and by the beautiful responses I’ve received that I am not alone in my thinking nor am I alone with what I’m going through on a daily basis.. Good, bad or indifferent it’s life..
I’ve also learned from experience through the years, that stuffing my feelings doesn’t do anything other than compressing them into a ball that gets bigger the more I stuff and no matter what they always come back and always when you least expect it and they do come back tenfold… 😮😮😮
Moral of this story: Don’t stuff your feelings cause they only come back to haunt you.. so deal with things as they come up cause no matter how hard they may be to face… In the long run you’ll be glad you did!
Much love and sweet dreams 💕
This morning when I woke up I was going to post a different poem I wrote and right before I posted it I saw a post my beautiful friend Christi posted on instagram about children and how we are taught hate and racism and it hit me hard… 😢 cause it’s so true 😢😢…
Growing up in NYC I was surrounded by diversity and different cultures from all over the world and was raised to accept everyone for WHO they are.. not WHAT they did for a living, not WHERE they were from, not what RELIGION they practiced or BELIEVED in and not what COLOR their skin was!
I was raised to BE ME & BE KIND TO ALL..To EMBRACE and LEARN from other cultures, not to FEAR them or DISLIKE them for being different and I raised my children the same way!!! Yet I truly feel our world is going backwards not forwards and it truly saddens my heart! 😢💔😢
Does it really matter where someone is from???… NO…. Does it really matter what someone does for a living as long as they aren’t stealing or harming another human being???… NO…. Does it really matter what color a person is???… NO… because if you strip our skin we would all look alike!! And does it really matter what you believe in, whether it be God, Allah, The Universe or none???… NO NO NO!!!! 😡😡😡
Come on people snap out of it… Stop talking smack about others just because they aren’t like you or don’t believe in what you believe…. Stop telling lies because you are jealous or don’t understand or just don’t know… Stop putting people in categories… We all bleed the same color and If you don’t know ask… Learn… Research whatever but STOP all this hate and violence just because others don’t believe as you do.. that’s what makes our world special…… that’s what makes our world unique 🌏💗🌍💗🌎💗
Moral of this story.. BE KIND.. BE HUMAN.. BE REAL & STOP THE NONSENSE…Hate breeds violence and if we continue at the rate we’re going our world will cease to be! Wake up world!!! BEFORE there is no world to wake up too! 💗🌏💗🌍💗🌎💗
WE ARE ONE!! EMBRACE NOT HATE!!!
Believe In Your Dreams and Your Goals
When we share our dreams and goals with others, many will not believe that it’s possible. Many will tell you that your dreams or goals are too big and that you’ll never reach them.. Some will put doubt and fear in your head as well… yet who’s dreams are they? Theirs or yours?🤔🤔🤔.
This morning I woke up thinking about all the people that thought I was crazy (after my son passed away) for wanting to get a bus and convert it into a living home on wheels. To travel all over the country sprinkling his ashes at all the beautiful places that we wanted too see and especially to do it alone.. 🤔😮🤔
It made me giggle and actually start laughing hard cause at one point all their doubts and negativity stated to make me doubt that I could do it too… 🤔🤔🤔 yet look at where I am now!
The bus is almost finished and my journey will soon begin and I can smile at all the doubters cause in my heart I knew I’d win 😁🤗😁.
Now when I look back at things I giggle and I laugh… cause I removed the negativity in my life and started to release the pain of my past. I believed with all my heart that I could make this dream come true, and I did exactly that with positivity and YOU..
So push all doubt out of your head and push negative people away from you.. They’re your dreams and it’s your life to live how you want too!!”
Have a fantabulous day world 🤗🌻🤗
Cause They Always Come Back
In the past few days I’ve had a bunch of feelings and emotions pop up out of nowhere yet because I’ve learned to allow them rather then to fight or stuff them, I’ve also learned that I feel 100% better when I deal with them and work through them right away.
In the past if it was fear of something or sadness I’d stuff the feelings or ignore them as if they weren’t there, trying to be a “strong ” person and not let things get to me… Showing your feelings isn’t a sign off weakness, it’s actually a sign off strength, a sign that does you are REAL yet society doesn’t help in that manner and neither does education and or sometimes people.
We are taught from a child to NOT cry, NOT to show or say how we truly feel, NOT to let others see when your hurting etc and I just don’t get that because it always comes back no matter what it comes back 10 fold, and it’s harder to deal with cause it brings up years of past shit and it when we last expect it too and then we just have to deal and heal from it all over again😡🤔😡
Feelings are a part of our being and to hide them is hiding who we truly are!! Always always allow yourself to feel.. Whether you’re mad, glad, sad or scared don’t hide how you feel, don’t stuff them and don’t pretend they aren’t there cause when we deal with them head on they are temporary.. When we stuff and hide them they last forever until we deal with them head on. So feel them, show them, allow them and process them cause when you do you’ll be glad you did!!
Goodnight Universe 🤗❤
Have Compassion For Yourself Too
This morning I was washing the outside the bus cause It’s absolutely beautiful outside and a neighbor stopped by… We started talking about positive self-talk and self-empathy and how it’s so easy to have empathy and compassion for another yet we are so very hard on ourselves 🤔🙄🤔.
We tend to “expect” perfection from ourselves yet we know what having expectations do…. 🤔🙄
They can set you up for failure and make you think you’re not good enough too…
So swap out the “I’m not good enough” with “I’ll always do my best!” Stay positive and believe in yourself and let faith do the rest 🤗❤
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗
Hello My Friends 🌻❤🌻❤🌻❤🌻❤🌻
Yesterday was a crazy day with people panicking about the hurricane which still isn’t anywhere near where I a live yet so many are panicking so I stayed working on the bus and I hid… 🙄🙄 I know it’s scary for many yet I don’t live it’s path and I understand the feelings yet we cannot control mother nature’s wrath.. please try to stay focused be aware and take one moment at a time…. Cause if you don’t stop freaking out your going lose your mind!!! 😱🙄😱
Well I’m almost finished with the kitchen countertop and sink… Just gotta paint it, caulk the sink secure and add the faucets… Yet I’m so excited and proud of myself for taking on this project and overcoming my fear of skill saws lol… I’m still making the window covers yet only have four more to do… I just wanted to share the progress so far as show it all to you ❤🤗❤🤗❤🤗❤
The total I need to get everything in order for me to have electricity to run the fridge and other things while I’m stopped at night without using the engine battery is down to $554 and I am so grateful to ask that have helped me get this far😀❤🤗.
I am still needing to purchase a 2000 watt inverter and two 12volt marine batteries as well as a 200 watt solar panel kit which would keep the inverter batteries charged at all times 🤗 My gofundme link is still active and is below for anyone that can help or if anyone knows where I can get those things cheaper please let me know.
Have a beautiful rest of your day world 🌻