Yesterday was a very cold and rainy day and as I was painting the counter and shelves it hit me hard that my journey is just a couple weeks away and I lost it😢😢
I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out how to let go of the sadness and pain because this was supposed to be and Michael’s journey.. 😢😢😢
Although i know he’s with me daily in mind, heart and spirit, I couldn’t get past the fact that his physical isn’t with me and I literally cried all day and cried myself to sleep.😢
I started doubting if I can really travel around alone to all the places he wanted us to see sprinkling his ashes along the way and this morning I woke up with this poem in my head.. 💗💗💗
I know it’s going to be a very emotional journey yet I know in my heart and soul that this is meant to be and I believe yesterday was just a OMG IT’S REALLY HAPPENING day and this morning I remembered that I’m not letting go to forget… I’m letting go to move on with my life…
To live and to begin a new journey, a new chapter in my life and although a tad scary it is time and I am ready.
Thank you to everyone that has helped me get to this point and for all the love and support received and continue to receive… For you all I am eternally grateful 💗🙏💗
The countdown to my new beginning, my journey to heal has begun!
Goodnight Universe 💕
In’s and Outs and Round Abouts
Tonight I was thinking a lot about my trip and seeing so many people that were a huge part of my life growing up and mainly one person that brought back so many memories and love that I thought I had let go of or just forgot and that really wasn’t the case because they never left my heart🤔🙄
When we look back on our lives there’s so many things and people that came and went yet for some reason or another things changed…
We look for the why’s and the reasons… the why it didn’t work out.. the what happened and more yet there really aren’t any answers other than it’s just the way life took its course… 🤔🙄
Just remember you wouldn’t be where you are today if you didn’t go through all those yesterday’s…
Some things are meant and some things are not yet love is forever cause it stays in your heart….
Good times will happen and bad times don’t last long.. yet they both make you who you are and they make you real strong…
So hold your head high and smile along the way… Cause those memories in your heart will forever stay!!!
Goodnight Universe ❤🤗
So Choose Positive Words Every Day
We all have good days and bad days yet it’s up to you to decide on which one… Our words create our reality so pick ones that make your day fun 🌻
Today I’m working on the kitchen part of the bus and so very excited… (Will post pics of it later)
Yet right when we we’re putting the kitchen cabinet in (which was giving us a hard time) my friend says “it’s gonna be impossible!” and it made me stop in my tracks cause nothing is impossible and I made her take the word back…
Hahaha as soon as she said. “I take that word back” we got the cabinet in without an issue… Haha so do your best to use positive words all throughout your day… Cause once you start using negative words you just ruined a beautiful day
Still needing help to get some things I need for the bus conversion. If anyone know where I can get a 2000 watt inverter, an electric cooler, and a 200 watt solar panel kit please let me know. My gofundme link below is still active and those are really the only things left that I’m needing help with to complete the bus and begin my journey to sprinkle my son’s ashes and heal… The full story is under the picture of me and my son in the campaign just click on “Read More” to read it all. Much love my friends and thank you for all your love, support, kindness and light ❤❤🙏🙏❤❤
Goodnight Universe ❤😘❤
Today as I was cleaning the bus, I got an almost overwhelming feeling of gratitude. It’s been two years since my son and I started our plans of saving for a bus to convert and make home so we could travel all over the country to see all the amazing places we dreamed of seeing.
It’s also been almost 2 years since he went on a different journey and it’s only been 5 months since I realized that I must continue in order to heal and keep the promise to him that I made ❤
My point is I’ve been waiting a long time for this to happen and throughout my devestating loss and my fight NOT to give up… I have our bus and I AM ready to continue with my dreams and his ❤
It’s so so sooooo worth everything I’ve had to endure to get to this point. 😍❤🙏
So always remember that if there’s something out there you can’t stop thinking about and want with every inch of your being DON’T QUIT, DON’T GIVE UP because ANYTHING and I mean ANYTHING worth having… Is DEFINITELY worth waiting for! because once you achieve it, you too will feel unexplainably AMAZING!! Sweet dreams my friends ❤🙏
There’s a few costly items I’m going to need help with to complete the bus and so I’m asking if anyone knows where I can get a 1000 watt inverter, a 100 or 200 watt solar panel kit and a small electric cooler or mini fridge to help me complete the bus, It will be greatly appreciated … I will be leaving my gofundme link active for anyone that would like to help… Or if anyone has one of those items they would be willing to donate please DM me or comment below. The active link is below. I’m so so excited to continue converting the bus. Thank you all for all your help it’s time to get the bus ready for my beautiful journey to heal and to continue 🙏❤🙏
Goodnight Universe ❤🙏😘