This morning while having my coffee my friend started taking about regrets and how she wished she wouldn’t have done this or that throughout her life and it made me think 🤔🤔🤔
So I asked her why she doesn’t do those things now and she couldn’t give me a reason why she couldn’t 🙄🤔🙄.
All our lives we are told we have to do this, we have to do that… And we are also taught that we have to earn the right to do something we love or we’re told as a child that something we want to do like being an writer, a dancer or an actress isn’t a feasible career… Hmmmmm?? 🤔🤔🤔🤔
There is no set time for you to do the things you love to do..
As they say..
“Dreams don’t have an expiration date!”
So follow your instincts, follow your heart, follow your passion it’s now time to start!.
Have a beautiful day world 🤗💗🤗💗🤗
This weekend give yourself time…
Goodnight Universe 💗
Setting boundaries isn’t always easy especially when it comes to family and people you’ve known for a really long time…
It requires you to say NO NO NO without guilt filling your mind…🙄🤔🙄
I’ve always been a giver, it’s just who I am.. Yet learning to say no without feeling guilty was one of the hardest things for me to do… 😥😥😥.
NO truly is a complete sentence and yet for some reason we tend to want to explain our reasons for saying NO…
They say we don’t owe anyone an explanation when we say NO… Yet why does it feel so yucky or mean when we don’t give an explanation???
Setting boundaries and saying NO shows that you know your limits of what you will and will not do… and your boundaries will be different towards different people too..
So don’t get mad or judge when people say NO to you… Cause setting boundaries is healthy and important for your peace of mind too!!🤗🤗.
Have a beautiful day world 🤗❤🤗
I dedicate this beautiful day to my oldest son…..
There truly are no words to express the love a mother has for her children… We carry them for 9 months, we nurture them and watch them grow… And although we try to do what’s best for them.. We truly never know how they will turn out… Cause There is no book or perfect plan… On how to teach your son to be a man…
I’ve made mistakes as we all do… Yet to see you all grown up, to see how you’ve grown up from that silly little boy to a man I am so very proud of… Fills my heart …
Happy Birthday Brandon
I sometimes wish that you were still small & not yet big and strong and tall..
For when I look at yesterday..
I close my eyes and see you play..
I often miss that little boy..
Who pestered me to buy a toy..
Who filled my life with pure delight..
From early morn to late at night…
I’ve watched you change…
I’ve watched you grow…
As seasons come & quickly go…
Now you’re all grown up and proud I am…
You’ve grown up and become
One hell of a man!!!
Happy Birthday Brandon
I’ll love you forever
I’ll like you for always
Forever & Always
My baby you’ll be 💗🤗💗
Have you ever been so shocked by someone else’s behavior that it truly made you feel like you weren’t sure if it was you or if it was them????? 😵🙄🤔.
Well that’s exactly what I’ve been going through for the past week.. So much so that I had to take a break from social media to get my head back on straight and take a good look at the situation and process it fully… 🤔🙄🤔🙄🤔…
I’ve always been a people person as well as being very spontaneous yet had always worried about what others thought about what I was doing and about myself in general 🙄 😩🤔😩..
It took me a loooonnnnggg time to not worry about what others thought about me, especially when it came to my doing what I needed to do for me and my peace of mind yet as we all look for a little validation, it totally threw me for a huge loop when someone I know (or should I say I thought I knew) stopped talking to me because I haven’t begun my journey in the bus yet! 😒🙄🤔😒…
Yes I went there…
Not being sure if it was them or me because I don’t like disappointing people in general 😖
I have never been one that’s afraid of change and I don’t have any problem with being spontaneous .. Yet this is HUGE and being that I am embarking on this journey alone (something else I’ve never ever done) “I” need to know that all my ducks are in a row with the bus and with myself especially emotionally 😏
The journey in the bus is a huge huge huge life change for me and for the first time in my life I actually want to do it right in every manner..
Although it is taking me longer than even I anticipated.. I’m taking my time.. So that when I drive away I’ll know that everything with the bus is mechanically sound and that I am truly emotionally ready to begin my journey to heal from the loss of my son and begin MY new life 🙏💗
What others may feel isn’t really relevant because this is my journey and however long it takes me to begin is OK..
It’s my journey to take when and only when….
I AM READY!!! 💗🙏💗
“If you have to choose between being kind and being right… Choose being kind and you’ll always be right!” ~ Dalai Lama
Growing up my mom always use to say “kill them with kindness” or “you get more with sugar than you do with vinegar!” And of course I had to learn that the hard way as most of us do…
Yet the older I get the more I see just how true it actually is and not just towards another.. It’s true for my inner peace as well! 😁🤔🙄🤔.
No-one or nothing is worth getting all worked up about.. It disturbs your peace of mind and truly disrupts your whole day…
So for today instead of reacting negatively back to a yucky situation.. Step back, process it, breathe, smile and kill the situation with kindness.. You’ll be amazed at how you’ll feel..
Cause negativity has no recourse to a positive response! 😒☺😒☺😒☺😒…
Have a beYOUtiful day world 🤗🌻🤗
That Make Or Break Your Day
🤗 BUS UPDATE 🤗
First and foremost I want to say thank you to all that sent love and support for me on my sons birthday. It is still a very difficult time for me and you all helped get me through a difficult day and I am forever grateful to you all 🤗🤗🤗 🙏🙏🙏💗💗💗
I spent the day crying and laughing working on the bus and focused on what Michael would have been doing and today while getting frustrated over the little things this poem popped into my head🙄 Go figure huh ..Needless to say I changed my mindset, tackled some little things and before I stopped I actually remembered to take some photos for YOU 😀😄😀.
The foam flooring my daughter bought me is in (except for one piece in front of the fridge that’s driving me insane) The extension of the countertop is complete and now encloses the fridge (that’s where the white sheer curtain is hanging) I took that lazyboy recliner out because it was too big and I have a surprise for you next week… That space is now where my two doggie beds are and they love it. I put a six and a half foot shelf up above the counter and sink that I still have to put a lip on so stuff doesn’t slide off and I still have to paint/seal the wood on both the countertop and shelf.. I took out the boxspring of the bed and my son made me a platform for the mattress so now I have 18 inches of storage under the bed. I have to hook up the water and faucet and the inverter and solar system which will all be done next week along with the really cool surprise for you that I am so excited about.. 😄🙃. I still have a bunch to do yet omg I’m loving it and of course I keep changing my mind on stuff like the window privacy panels third times a charm🙄 still need more color cause it’s so blue and yellow (Michael’s favorite colors) yet I gotta brighten it up cause I LOVE colors 💗
So my friends here’s some pics because if it wasn’t for all of you, all of your love, support, donations and belief in me I would not be where I am and I know without a doubt that Michael is smiling at us all!!! WOO HOO MY FRIENDS IT’S HAPPENING… Much love to you all and thank you thank you thank you.. I AM GRATEFUL