Yesterday was a very cold and rainy day and as I was painting the counter and shelves it hit me hard that my journey is just a couple weeks away and I lost it😢😢
I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out how to let go of the sadness and pain because this was supposed to be and Michael’s journey.. 😢😢😢
Although i know he’s with me daily in mind, heart and spirit, I couldn’t get past the fact that his physical isn’t with me and I literally cried all day and cried myself to sleep.😢
I started doubting if I can really travel around alone to all the places he wanted us to see sprinkling his ashes along the way and this morning I woke up with this poem in my head.. 💗💗💗
I know it’s going to be a very emotional journey yet I know in my heart and soul that this is meant to be and I believe yesterday was just a OMG IT’S REALLY HAPPENING day and this morning I remembered that I’m not letting go to forget… I’m letting go to move on with my life…
To live and to begin a new journey, a new chapter in my life and although a tad scary it is time and I am ready.
Thank you to everyone that has helped me get to this point and for all the love and support received and continue to receive… For you all I am eternally grateful 💗🙏💗
The countdown to my new beginning, my journey to heal has begun!
Goodnight Universe 💕
Tonight while having a torrential downpour something kept telling me to go for a walk in the rain.
At first I even thought it was crazy cause when I say pouring I mean the sky opened up and just dumped and still is yet that little voice inside of me kept saying go it’s OK go.. so I did and I got so drenched that my feet and hands were literally pruned lol lol it was an amazing feeling like being cleansed by the universe… (I love walking in the rain…)
Yet when I got back my neighbor said I was crazy and courageous for walking in a storm such as we are having (did I mention there was lightning in the far far far distance⚡)
It made me think about the little voice that told me it was OK… That I’d be OK 🤗 and I was and am.. 🌧😌
I guess the moral of this story is: So many times we go against what we feel within and wind up regretting it and tonight although that little voice was telling me to go for a walk in a crazy ass rain storm.. I listened and I feel amazing.. 🤗🌧🤗
Listen to what your gut says even if it’s something as silly as going for a walk in a torrential downpour cause listening to that voice within is the most courageous thing we can do!!!
Goodnight universe!!! 😁🌧😁
That Make Or Break Your Day
🤗 BUS UPDATE 🤗
First and foremost I want to say thank you to all that sent love and support for me on my sons birthday. It is still a very difficult time for me and you all helped get me through a difficult day and I am forever grateful to you all 🤗🤗🤗 🙏🙏🙏💗💗💗
I spent the day crying and laughing working on the bus and focused on what Michael would have been doing and today while getting frustrated over the little things this poem popped into my head🙄 Go figure huh ..Needless to say I changed my mindset, tackled some little things and before I stopped I actually remembered to take some photos for YOU 😀😄😀.
The foam flooring my daughter bought me is in (except for one piece in front of the fridge that’s driving me insane) The extension of the countertop is complete and now encloses the fridge (that’s where the white sheer curtain is hanging) I took that lazyboy recliner out because it was too big and I have a surprise for you next week… That space is now where my two doggie beds are and they love it. I put a six and a half foot shelf up above the counter and sink that I still have to put a lip on so stuff doesn’t slide off and I still have to paint/seal the wood on both the countertop and shelf.. I took out the boxspring of the bed and my son made me a platform for the mattress so now I have 18 inches of storage under the bed. I have to hook up the water and faucet and the inverter and solar system which will all be done next week along with the really cool surprise for you that I am so excited about.. 😄🙃. I still have a bunch to do yet omg I’m loving it and of course I keep changing my mind on stuff like the window privacy panels third times a charm🙄 still need more color cause it’s so blue and yellow (Michael’s favorite colors) yet I gotta brighten it up cause I LOVE colors 💗
So my friends here’s some pics because if it wasn’t for all of you, all of your love, support, donations and belief in me I would not be where I am and I know without a doubt that Michael is smiling at us all!!! WOO HOO MY FRIENDS IT’S HAPPENING… Much love to you all and thank you thank you thank you.. I AM GRATEFUL
I dedicate today to my son who’s in the sky above… To let him know I miss him and I’m sending him birthday love… 💗💗..
I am a grieving mother…
I am the same yet I am different….
I am here, yet a part of me is gone forever..
I stand in the sunlight…
Yet I walk in the shadows of what was…
Cannot ever be ….
Until we meet again my son….
For all eternity 🙏💗🙏
Happy Birthday Michael
I Love You forever & beyond
We’re Here To See Each Other Through
Good evening my friends 🤗🌻
With all the devastation between Hurricane Harvey, Irma and the possibility of Jose… It made me think about how important it is for us all to be here for each other 🤔🙏🤔.
Some things we can’t control like Mother Nature… Some things we can like offering a helping hand… It’s not something we have to do yet it’s definitely something we all should do… 🤗🙏🤗🙏🤗🙏🤗.
Kindness doesn’t cost a thing and it can truly change someone life… We aren’t invisible yet so many turn their heads when they see someone less fortunate or not “like”they are… 🤔🙄🤔.
We aren’t here to be better than or to see through each other… We are here to see each other through.. cause when it comes down to it that’s what we’re here to do… We ARE one!!!
Goodnight night universe, Goodnight my friends 🤗🌻
No One Can Control Mother Nature’s Wrath
I don’t ever do this as all of you know, yet being that I live in Florida I of course can’t get it out of my mind… 🤔🙄🤔
I have family in Puerto Rico, and friends in Miami and the Keys… And hurricane Irma is already classified as a category 6 hurricane.
So I’m asking all to send their love and light to all in Hurricane Irma’s Path… Cause Mother Nature is no joke and we cannot control her wrath…💨💦💨
So to all my friends that are in her way I’m sending all my love… I pray that you will all be safe and I’m sending light from up above 💟💟💟 Be Safe My Friends 🙏🙏
Goodnight Universe ❤🤗❤
It’s Just How Long You’ve Been You
This has been a beautiful yet extremely emotional few days. Flying to see my sister and family has been a whirlwind of emotions and memories of the past 40+ yrs… 😱🙄😱
Lots of laugh, lots of tears and lots of omg Ricci you haven’t changed a bit LOL LOL… and that’s what made me write this poem cause it’s true…
Age is just a number it is very true.. your age is just the number that shows how long you’ve been learning to be you… It really doesn’t matter what you do or what you’ve done… As long as you are true to yourself then your life will always be fun!!!
Have a beautiful day world 🌻🤗