They say that grief has many stages and the definition says it is a very deep sorrow, usually caused from a death… Yet although I believe in the stages, I believe grief is really just love.
A love so deep it causes a void, a void that’s hard to live with, a void that never gets filled. Yet even though I know in my heart and deep within my soul that my son is always with me… The hardest part isn’t saying Good-bye…. The hardest past is learning to live without him.
💫 Goodnight💫Universe 💫
😢 Ricci 😢
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Don’t Engage In Ignorance, Just Turn and Walk Away
People are so quick to tell you how you should or shouldn’t feel… What you should do with your life, how you should do it and why you shouldn’t do what you want to…
Today I had someone approach me because I was crying/mourning about my son, alone by the river and she proceeded to tell me that it’s been a year so I shouldn’t STILL be upset,… Then went on to tell me I should just dump his ashes in the river and move on, that he’s gone and won’t know the difference and then proceeded to tell me that it’s foolish for me to travel around the country sprinkling his ashes because I should never travel alone…. AHHHHHHHHH WTF????
All I did was look up to the sky and very loudly thanked the universe for the person I’ve grown to be…and honestly she should have done it too actually, because a a year ago I would have drowned her ass!!!! Instead I turned towards her, smiled, got up and walked away…. I guess my healing has begun 🙏😍🙏
Don’t ever allow anyone’s ignorance, lack of cooth, negativity and or opinions dictate how you feel about anything…. No one can truly make you feel anyway unless you allow them too….
Learn, reflect, let go & move on… It’s your life to live not there’s.
😊🙏😊 Ricci 😊🙏😊
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Grieving is NO joke!!! I was thinking about taking a sabbatical from IG and from my blog for a bit because I’m an emotional mess from losing my son, yet decided to continue doing what I do and rather than stuffing my feelings behind my writing, I’ve decided I’m going to write about them.
Most of you know I lost my son and I realized tonight that although my writing is about daily stuff, about life, I’ve been stuffing about what’s really going on and it’s time I let it all out so to speak.
I’ve been having the hardest time in my life emotionally and I need to express how I feel about the worst pain ever, the loss of a child, with hope that I may reach others that are emotionally lost as I am and let them know they are NOT ALONE!!!
My writing is an extension of me and what I’m going through at that moment and up until literally 5 minutes ago I realized that my sadness and pain are an extension of me too yet up until now I wasn’t ready to open that can of whoop ass…😢
I AM ready now…I AM ready to fully being my healing journey and for those that would like to follow you’re more than welcome… Let the healing begin… This is gonna be a bumpy ride.. Much love and sweet dreams my friends… Let the ride begin ❤❤🙏🙏❤❤
❤ Ricci ❤
Especially When Your A Giver
Hello my friends… I’ve been sitting here all morning an absolute mess and talking to my good friend in Ireland who reminded me the importance of asking for help and giving others the opportunity to help me as I’ve helped others. So I’m stepping out of my comfort zone and asking for help.
Most of you know my story about losing my middle son and know that my writings are what I am going through at that moment. I write often about stepping out of our comfort zone and taking a leap of faith… Yet I myself haven’t truly done it and it’s time for me to practice what I preach so to speak. ❤❤ A lot of people on Instagram have asked about the gofundme account my soon to be daughter-in-law started for me so I can honor my sons wishes and travel to spread his ashes at his favorite places around the country and I want to keep my promises to him and myself yet living on my disability income isn’t allowing me to save enough each month to do so by July. So I am stepping out of my comfort zone and sharing the info with you.
I’m a giver, I love helping others and will always do so and yet asking and receiving is very hard for me yet I can’t write about things that I’m not willing to do myself so I am reaching out and asking for help. ❤❤
I’ve posted the link in my Instagram profile Instagram.com/rj3624 and I’m asking for help to reach my goal.. Those that can help thank you in advance and those who can’t help, if you could share it so I can honor my son and most importantly honor myself, I’d be extremely appreciative. ❤❤
It’s time for me to let go, it’s time for me to heal and it’s time for me to live again.
I cannot express my gratitude for all your love and support… For you all I am so very grateful.
❤❤❤ Thank you all!!! Much love always ❤❤
❤❤❤ Ricci❤❤❤❤ ❤
There Is No Limit To What You Can Do
When I was a kid I remember my mom telling me that it doesn’t matter what others say, it doesn’t matter what they think, as long as I know the truth and I believe, then that’s all that matters.
Yet as I grew up I did care what others thought and what they said. Why??? I don’t have a clue… But its so true…
We go through life worrying what our friends think and say, what our family thinks and says, what our teachers, what our employers, what everyone thinks or says… Why?
Does it really matter what anyone thinks? Does it stop us from doing things we want to do… Yep it does and that’s not ok.
Listening to the opinions of others about what you want to do with your life is fine and dandy if you’re doing it to get ideas, make plans and stuff like that, but if what others say is stopping you from doing the things you want to do or living the life of your dreams, then you’ll never do what you love, you’ll never follow your dreams.
Everyone has an opinion and not everyone is going to like or want to do the same things you do and that’s ok. Just because others don’t want to doesn’t mean you shouldn’t.
The most important person that needs to believe is YOU. If you don’t believe it doesn’t matter what others say, it doesn’t matter who believes and who doesn’t, if you don’t believe in you, no matter what it won’t happen.
Surround yourself with people who support your dreams, with people that get excited for you to reach your dreams and who believe you will. And more important than anything start believing in you! Cause when you do there is no limit to all the things you can do!!!
We tend to look at risks as a scary thing… Yet we takes risks in every day life. We risk crossing the street, we risk walking out of the house every morning, we risk changing jobs, we risk saying I love you…
Every day we take risks without realizing we are, yet when it comes to pursuing our dreams we get scared and that fear gets us stuck and when we get stuck we don’t do anything.
I’ve always admired those who aren’t ever afraid of jumping off a 50 foot cliff into a beautiful pool of crystal clear water, I’ve watched so many including my children yet I had never done it. It may have been due to my damn near drowning when I was a child, yet 4 yrs ago I was dared by my kids (who would have never let me live it down cause I made them go on huge roller coasters and taught them to always push past their fears) to jump off a cliff when we went camping. Scared shitless (I could already hear them picking on me in my head) I ran as fast as I could and took that leap. It was the most exhilarating freeing feeling and I was very proud of myself. (Never told my kids I thought I was going to die and have a heart attack) Yet I did it and it reminded me that going after your dreams is basically the same as taking that leap off that cliff…
We all have fears that we must push past and no matter how scary taking that risk, taking that leap of faith may be… It’s way better to jump then to stay stuck being miserable or dreaming about a life you want….
Push past that fear and take that leap of faith… It’s safe to take risks when it’s leading you to your dreams… You may not see the entire road but if you don’t take the risk you’ll never know…
Take the risk…..
💥💥 Ricci 💥💥
Tomorrow’s A Brand New Day
Yep it’s been one of those days… I know we’ve all had them… The type of day that feels like it’s never gonna end, filled with so much crap, emotions and stuff, that you can’t wait for the day to end… Yet it feels like this one day is longer than a whole week! Yep we all have them.. And even though we know that the day will eventually end… Most of is don’t let it…
We carry on whatever crap we had to endure home with us, to bed with us and into the next day, which makes this ONE long day endless!
No matter what this day was like… LET IT GO… If it ended badly it’s obvious whatever you were doing wasn’t working, so why carry it on and on.
LET IT GO
Taking it home isn’t gonna fix it. Taking it to bed in your head isn’t gonna fix it and stressing on it won’t fix it either… So LET IT GO….
One of the best lessons I’ve learned is to not ever allow a bad day ruin my sleep or ruin my tomorrow. Nothing is worth your well being, nothing is worth stressing over cause stress doesn’t fix anything. It just ruins a good evening and it ruins a good night sleep.
LET IT GO
No matter how hard the day has been, reflect, relax and let today go… for tomorrow’s a brand new day…
😴💫 Ricci 💫😴