Have you ever been so shocked by someone else’s behavior that it truly made you feel like you weren’t sure if it was you or if it was them????? 😵🙄🤔.
Well that’s exactly what I’ve been going through for the past week.. So much so that I had to take a break from social media to get my head back on straight and take a good look at the situation and process it fully… 🤔🙄🤔🙄🤔…
I’ve always been a people person as well as being very spontaneous yet had always worried about what others thought about what I was doing and about myself in general 🙄 😩🤔😩..
It took me a loooonnnnggg time to not worry about what others thought about me, especially when it came to my doing what I needed to do for me and my peace of mind yet as we all look for a little validation, it totally threw me for a huge loop when someone I know (or should I say I thought I knew) stopped talking to me because I haven’t begun my journey in the bus yet! 😒🙄🤔😒…
Yes I went there…
Not being sure if it was them or me because I don’t like disappointing people in general 😖
I have never been one that’s afraid of change and I don’t have any problem with being spontaneous .. Yet this is HUGE and being that I am embarking on this journey alone (something else I’ve never ever done) “I” need to know that all my ducks are in a row with the bus and with myself especially emotionally 😏
The journey in the bus is a huge huge huge life change for me and for the first time in my life I actually want to do it right in every manner..
Although it is taking me longer than even I anticipated.. I’m taking my time.. So that when I drive away I’ll know that everything with the bus is mechanically sound and that I am truly emotionally ready to begin my journey to heal from the loss of my son and begin MY new life 🙏💗
What others may feel isn’t really relevant because this is my journey and however long it takes me to begin is OK..
It’s my journey to take when and only when….
I AM READY!!! 💗🙏💗