Divorce Your Past

To Move On To The New

Hello World, 

Yesterday was a very cold and rainy day and as I was painting the counter and shelves it hit me hard that my journey is just a couple weeks away and I lost it😒😒

I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out how to let go of the sadness and pain because this was supposed to be  and Michael’s journey.. 😒😒😒

Although i know he’s with me daily in mind, heart and spirit, I couldn’t get past the fact that his physical isn’t with me and I literally cried all day and cried myself to sleep.😒

I started doubting if I can really travel around alone to all the places he wanted us to see sprinkling his ashes along the way and this morning I woke up with this poem in my head.. πŸ’—πŸ’—πŸ’—

I know it’s going to be a very emotional journey yet I know in my heart and soul that this is meant to be and I believe yesterday was just a OMG IT’S REALLY HAPPENING day and this morning I remembered that I’m not letting go to forget… I’m letting go to move on with my life… 

To live and to begin a new journey, a new chapter in my life and although a tad scary it is time and I am ready. 

Thank you to everyone that has helped me get to this point and for all the love and support received and continue to receive… For you all I am eternally grateful πŸ’—πŸ™πŸ’—

The countdown to my new beginning, my journey to heal has begun! 

Goodnight Universe πŸ’•

Ricci πŸ’•

Author: Hello World Goodnight Universe

Hello World, My name is Ricci pronounced like Ricky, yet it's been mispronounced all my life and at my age I answer to just about anything 😊 I am a writer, a writer of motivational light. A writer about everyday life. My story is one of hope, inspiration & motivation... One that begins over a half a century ago, when life was much different than it is today. We all have our own story, for each of us is unique. Some have had it easy, some have had it hard. Yet I believe that each one of our stories can bring a bit of light to others and I hope mine will bring light to some of you. My goal is to tell my story with hope that others can see that no matter what happens throughout your life... You CAN prevail, even when it feels like you can't. For I know it's possible, even after the loss of a child, which to me is the most devastating life event ever... I know for I have and am prevailing each and every day. It isn't easy and there are days where I feel I cannot go on yet always know that You are NOT alone... Everything is possible when you believe. Everything is possible when you believe in YOU ❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀❀

9 thoughts on “Divorce Your Past”

  1. It’s good to be scared, for ‘scared’ is your body and brain telling you to double check, and make a plan in case something goes wrong.

    Scared is that thing which keeps us alert.

    If you find yourself in a moment of scared remind yourself that you can always come home, and perhap give yourself and hour, two hours, four hours or 24 hours to work out what it is that you’re actually feeling, and why. If it’s just a moment of Eeeek! because you’re outside your comfort zone, then you can always back track and spend time in the last place you were happiest. Nothing is forcing you to do anything you absolutely don’t want to. Give yourself chance to be comfortable with moving on, before you move on and you’ll be fine.

    You are about to embark on something that an awful lot of people would love to do, but are too scared to move from where they are. Staying where they are is a good thing for them. That’s the choice they’ve made and it’s a brave choice, for them.

    Making this monumentous decision to do this journey which you’re about to embark upon is also a brave thing to do. For you. But remind yourself that if you get to a place where you feel that you’ve had enough and want to come home, give yourself chance to live with that decision. However long it takes. An hour… two… four.. or even 24 hours.

    Reminding yourself that you can always come back home …. will help to keep you strong and brave, and it will show you that only you are in charge of this journey. The journey is yours alone – so if you want to come back home, then that decision is the right one, for YOU.

    You cannot embrace your destiny if you don’t let go of your history.

    So far … you’ve survived 100% of what have been your worst days. I think you’re made a great stuff and a journey from A to B. Then from B to C. Then from C to D. Until you’ve completed the whole alphabet, isn’t going to be that tough, when you realise what you’ve been through so far, and survived.

    Sending love and vibes of positivity. ~ Cobs. x

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    1. Hi Cobs πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—

      I must have read your comment 4 times and totally agree that there’s a difference between being scared or afraid and living in fear..

      English was my favorite subject all through my school years and still is.. I love words (ya think? Haha) and while “Fear” is a noun it can also be a verb and can cause long term changes in the brain or phobias making it harder to get past or through the fear like being in fear for your life.. Being “shared” is an adjective and usually a temporary feeling that one can get past or through easily like when someone jumps at you from behind a door or like going to a haunted house at Halloween πŸ€—πŸ˜¨πŸ€— being or getting scared is your bodies alert system.. I love that!!!

      Once again you’ve triggered a poem and are right on point my friend…

      After my son passed and I made the decision to continue with our plans our dream.. There was no fear because I knew I could always turn around and go home and have always known that and have said to many throughout this project that the reason I wanted a van or a bus was so that if I pulled into somewhere and it didn’t feel right I could get out of bed without going outside and drive elsewhere…

      I have always listened to my “alert” system and you my friend hit the nail on the head… I my friend do believe that we met people for a reason and whether in person or online people come into and go out of our lives for a purpose and I am so grateful you and I have crossed paths… Much love to you today, tomorrow, forever and beyond.. Huge huge huge hugs beYOUtiful soulπŸ˜˜πŸ€—πŸ˜˜πŸ€—πŸ˜˜πŸ€—πŸ˜˜

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  2. Every major journey — of body, mind, emotions, or spirit — will bring forth feelings of many kinds. Accept each for what it is, pause to process it if that’s what you need to do, and carry on. Often these feelings are warnings that you need that pause, or signs that you’re getting tired. Pay attention to yourself, keep your goal in mind, and be good to you. I am picturing you completing your preparations as I complete my own, getting ready for the next step whatever it may be. Our journeys are very different, our feelings about those journeys are probably very different, but they are real and need attention (and sometimes a swift emotional kick in the butt, in my case). When feelings keep repeating themselves, I think of them as saying “Good-bye, I’ll miss you, have a good trip.” I hope you’ll continue letting us know what’s happening. Did you realize how interesting you are?

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    1. Thank you Susan I truly needed to hear your words.. And a good swift kick in the butt too… πŸ€—πŸ’—πŸ€— never thought of myself as interesting.. real yeah Yet that is a very well rounded word to describe me.. Thank you my friend and I will totally keep writing and am sure I’ll have much more to say as I begin my journey.. My next chapter.. Wherever that may be πŸ’—πŸ˜˜πŸ’—πŸ˜˜πŸ’—πŸ˜˜

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